Om Sai Ram,
I want to know whether my love is true towards the guy whom I love or not. I know baba knows everything of me but mind is wondering for peace. I do not know whether I love the guy or not but still I cannot forget him. i am disturbing him by sending msgs and hurting him. I feel guilty also that i irritate him badly. I do not know why I do all this to him but still he is very silent baring my msgs. i wont get replies. everybody says he is not in love with me. but my heart says there is a place for me in his heart. he stopped talking to me also one year and 8 months over. i underwent for treatment for my depression, cooling my mind for peace. yoga, meditation, kriya and what not. still could not forget him. is loving is a mistake from my side. I always feel that same love why I did show towards God. I want to know why i am like this behaving with him always. I do not know whether I am negative or positive person to him. I msged him that he was my weakness but now also i msg him his words became my strength. may be he is not interested or not known. but still my heart beats, tears roll down when I think of him that only sai knows,I do not know where I went wrong with him. he is a good person as i spoken to him all the past 7 years. When I was desireless i used get a call or i used call him and talk. but when i desired that I started loving him he stopped totally talking replying msging gave me silent treatment I bared everything becos of sai. I want know he wants me or not or I want him or not?
? y i am back of him disturbing him. everything left to sai baba. I know he shows way for me, though he showing meway in my difficult time.
shobha
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