SaiRam Om Shanti Bhai,
Welcome to the blessed Sai Mandir and family. Bhai, taking responsibility and saying that you are sorry about something you did wrong is one way you can let go of guilt. I can feel your hurt and guilt, that you are no more able to express it to your Dad, but you have conveyed/prayed it to merciful Sai, who will forgive you. And Bhai, give it time, our beloved Sai in form of time will heal you, will pacify your soul and thoughts and make it possible for you to move on. This is the truth and we should accept it. May Sai give you more control over speech and anger, bless you to peace.
Aum Sai Ram !
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-Anju