Om sai ram..Aaj shirdi jaa raha hoon par ek ajeeb sa darr bhi aur confidence bhi..I know I truly love baba,my parents,my brother and sabina but still I fear if again things dont go according to the plan..will everything fail like last time around..My brother has lost his job and after so many years of struggle he is not getting a breakthrough...My mom is not keeping well and worried about us..Sabina has left me and I am into peices and I will emtionally breakdown when I land on shirdi soil where we had been together and accepted eachother as life partner..Dwarkamai mein I will step in alone where as we had planned to come after marriage together..Today I dont even know where and how is she?? I am facing this deadlock and I dont know whether sai will listen to me..All your problems and wishes have made me little stronger and I have promised I will just pray for all you guys and not for myself as I see small children going through pain,so many sisters and brothers in agony..everyone has their own share of problems and I feel selfish to ask for solution for my problems..I just wish that I have enough strength and hope this time things dont break again and my family unites and be happy for few years which they deserve..Om sai ram..