DEAR ANIL, DONT LOSE HEART . IT IS HE AND HE ALONE WHO DECIDES WHEN WE COME AND WHEN WE SHOULD GO. HAVING SAID THAT, SINCE YOU HAVE SURRENDERED TO BABA AND CONFESSED YOUR SINS , CHANT HIS NAME WHENEVER YOU CAN , HOWMUCH EVER YOU CAN AND HE WILL BRING YOU OUT OF THIS JANTAR MANTAR. OM SAIRAM, JAI SAIRAM, JAI JAI SAIRAM.