dear mamoos, us being mere human beings , most of us do these things although we read religious books and listen to devotional lectures. but in practise it is
very difficult , especially when one provokes you. having said this , you have realized your mistake and admitted it to baba . this is the first step towards your realization of sai's teaachings. dont worry keep praying to sai he will put your cousin on the right path . but one small piece of advise , "if you throw a stone on
cow dung it will splash on you" so if somebody provokes you , try to ignore it. god bless. OM SAIRAM.