Sai Ram Nagendra Bhai!!
From what you write about your lady, it is clear that she loves herself not you. She wants you to keep her happy and to spend money on her. If she truly loved you, she would have found ways to keep you happy instead. Let me be honest with you dear friend: You are saved! Baba has saved you from a selfish and insensitive person. This may not sound pleasant, but Baba knows she is not the right person for you. So, He removed her from your life. So instead of complaining, please thank Him.
You say you can't live without her. Trust me, you can. It is only a matter of time when you will be able to love again, with more intensity, a better person that Baba will send into your life.. Just wait with Saburi for the one who is truly made for you. May Baba bless you with the power of discrimination!!
Om Sai Ram!
Om Sai Ram!
Sunita Raina