sai baba ,
Aap khud hi kehte ho na , jo apne maa baap ki seva karta hai , wo meri seva karta hai , baba lekin kal maine aapka dil dukhaya , kal maine apni maa ko seva ke badale aansu diye , jiske baad mai khud bhi bahut roya huein , aankho se nahi dil ke aanshuo se ,Baba meri maa ko lagta hai ki unka beta unko pyar nahi karta , mai ye kaise batau ki mai apne maa baap ke bina jee nahi sakta , mager mai dikha nahi pata huein. chahe meri maa kaisi bhi hai , hai to meri maa na baba, mujhe apni maa ka dil nahi dhukhaana chahiye tha. choti choti baatoen mai mera abhimaan mere saamane aa jata hai aur mai maa ko gusee se kuch bhi bol deta huien , ye bhi nahi socha ki maa ko kya lagega , maine maa ko bola mai tum logo ke saath nahi reh sakta ab aur , mai kanhi aur flat le lunga per aapki surat ab bardash nahi kar sakta . mai akele rehna chahta huein. lekin jo bola wo dil se nahi balki gusse se bola aur mai apni maa ko jindagi mai kabhi nahi akele rehne dunga , chahi kanhi bhi rahu mere maa pitaji mere saath hi rahenge. lekin kal jab unhone thik hai tu jaana chahta hai to jaa , lekin mai aisa kabhi nahi kar sakta , chahe mai kitna bada aadami kyon na ban jaaun. baba jab maa baap ki sewa karne ka waqt aaya hai , to muh pher ke kaise jaa sakta huein. mere sarir ko marne ke baad kide pade baba , kitna dil dhuka diya kal maine apni maa ka .kya kya nahi bola kal gusse mai......sai maut de do mujhe maut ..ye hi ab ishka prayachist hai.
Maa ne rote huye bola kya ish hi din ke liye tujhe itna bada kiya tha ....ki ab tu hamare saath aisa bolega . khud bhuke rah kar tujhe khana ki kami nahi hone di humne , sai nath aaj hum jo bhi hai apni maa ki badolat hai ..kese kese din nahi dheke mere maa baap ne ......aur aaj jab beta bada hone laga to kuch sapne dekhe maa ne , aur mai naalayak apne maa ke sapno ko apni awwaz se thodne laga. galat galat bol ke ......baba mai bura nahi huein ye sirf aap jaante hai , aur koi nahi..........
Baba mujhe jo saja deni hai de dena , mera accident kar do mujhe maar do chahe kuch bhi karo mera pariwaar baccha lo baba . meri maa ko mai bahut pyar karta huein. bas gusse mai aaane ke baad kya kya bola , kaisi kaisi baatein ki kisi bhi maa ka kaleja fat jaye , lekin mai kaisa huien ager meri maa jaanti hai to mujhe maaf kar degi , kyonki meri maa ki dant bhi mere liye pyar hai.
jab mai apne pitaji ko dekhta huein. to bus lagta hai ki unko saari khusiya du , jo wo kanhe khane ko du, jo wo kanhe unko pine ko du.
baba aaj mai ye kaise bhul jaun mere maa baap ne khud bhuka rahkar khana diya hai , khud ek hi kapdo mai rahkar bachpan mai mujhe acche acche kapde diye jo bola wo kiya chae ghar per paise ho ya na ho, mujhe sab mila kyonki akela ladka huein na. lekin mai naalayak ish pyar ko samajh nahi paya , kal jo maine kiya aap to kya koi bhi maaf nahi karega , baba mujhe se jo bhul ho gayi , ye mere sabse bade paapon ki list mai samil ho gaya hai , ishliye mujhe maaf kar do .....Aaj ke baad ager mere maa baap mujhe pine ko zehar bhi denge to mai has ke pee lunga , ek sabd nahi bolunga .....kyonki mai bahut bura huein . mujhe dukh dard do , koi fark nahi padega , lekin meri maa ka dil , har maa ki tarah hai , mere dard wo dekh nahi sakte , ishliye ager mujhe dukh aur dard do lekin meri maa ko pata nahi chalna chahiye , warna mujhe saza nahi , double saja milegi , kyonki mai apni maa aur pita ki aankh mai aanshu nahi dekh sakta ..
baba jo hua wo hua ........Ab pure jiwan mai ...ye kasam khata huein ki apni maa aur babuji ka dil kabhi nahi dukhaunga ,,....
mere jivan mai koi mayane nahi rahega , chahe wo mere dost ho , bhai ho ,chahe mere wife bhi kyon na ho ,,,,,
Sabko chod dunga mager apni maa ki aanko mai dubaara aanshu nahi aane dunga , chahe mujhe apni khusiya kyon na bechni pad jaye , chahe ye sarir hi raakh karna pad jaye ...baba mai apne maa ko, pita ko jiwan mai khus dekhna chahtaa huein bussssss.
mere liye ye hi meri life ka maksad ab ban gaya hai....
Mujhe maaf kar do sai , mujhe maaf kar do sai .....
baba mere ish mail ko aap apni mazzar se pad rahe ho naaa baba
baba jivan ka sahi raasta dikha diya aapne , maalik .....
Ager meri maa din ko raat kahegi to mai bhi din ko raat hi kahunga...
ab mai jivan mai galat aur sahi nahi dekhunga jo maa bolegi mai karunga ....
kyonki meri maa bahut acchi hai ,,,,maa ne jo bhi bola mere bhale ke liye bola ..mager maine isko galat samjha ........sai mujhe maaf kar do ya meri jivan leela khatam kar do...... Aap aaj kal bahut chamatkar dikhate ho na ....
ek chamatkaar aur kar do apne ish abhage bhakt pe ............jab tak mere maa aur pita ish duniya mai hai , unka beta sarwan kumar bankar unke saath rehna chahta hai , mere maa aur pita ke baad mujeh jo bhi saja deni ho de dena , mager , ab mai apne maa aur babujee ki aankho mai aanshu nahi aane dunga ...ye mera wada hi nahi sai naam ki khaye huyi sapath hai.
mujhe mere maksad mai safal karna maalik .......
ab waqt aa gaya hai , mujhe sach mai badal na padega... malik sach mai....
warna ish jivan mai kuch nahi kiya siwaye papo ke , ek punya to ho jaane to sai , jivan safal ho jayega... kripa karo deva ... kripa karo deva....
na sona chahiye na chandi , na daulat , na maya
mujhe sirf mere maa pita ji ka pyar chahiye ....unki har hasrat puri karne ki sakti do maalik ....unki aanko mai ab ye subhi khusi dekhega sirf khusi ......
jai sai nath
subhash chander Thapliyal
Topic: sai mujhse bura koinahi ish duniya mai,aur maa ke diljesa duniya mai koi dilnahi (Read 12255 times)