Dear suhaniji,
I believe that God likes us the most when we are natural. We cant change all of a sudden. complete devotion doesnt come just like that. we have to drop of all our expectation and surrender ourself at baba feet and let him decide what to do.
So be natural. even if u get angry with baba it is ok. when u play with a small baby, even if it kicks u u wont get angry. Just like that even if u get angry with baba he will not get angry. he knows the love behind it.
Jai sai ram
Prajna