Jai Ram,
I am 33 yrs old having 9 months baby.
I have taken up an initiative to recite hanuman chalisa 108 times daily for 108 days.. i knew its going to be very effortful and rigorous. I heard its very effective for complete personality. by doing this i want to rejuvenate myself completely to ngoig new human being.
it has been a week exactly, i need clarifications based on the way i am doing:
1. Waking up at 3:45 am and after my ablutions, bath, lighting up diya at hanuman and sitting on a blanket to start
reciting.
2. Reciting a very little loud and at times completely inside closing my mouth...but most of the time with my eyes opened only. since its early in morning, first 1 hr i am walking and reciting to avoid the drowsiness.. i am able to complete 108 times by 8 AM everyday..
3. stopped consuming Non-Veg feed, alcohol, I dont smoke, not sleeping on bed, no physcial contact with wife, avoiding spicy foods.
I dont know whether the way I am doing in the above three points is correct or not. Could you please clarify?
secondly, this is some thing deep, most of times i am able to recite automatically without recollecting what is next line, lines are flowing like fluid but my thoughts
are completely distracted and random although i am sitting in a closed room without any disturbances.
some times my thoughts are so bad and vulgar cant even share them to any one...at times, such thoughts swarm in my mind for 2 hrs although i complete 54 times without missing any line in parallel.
some times I feel I wont be able to do this for 108 days and cut it short to a mandal 41 days.. same time my mind is telling me to do it completely...
Request you to help me clarify if i am going wrong anywhere or this is the process in which my mind gets cleant up gradually.
Suggest me some remedies if required here.
Thanks