How do we relate to Baba?
This is a question always lingering behind our minds - How to relate with BABA?
1 Why do we go to BABA?
2 Are we scared of HIM?
3 Do we feel that if we do not worship Him He might make our life miserable?
4 Are our feelings of devotion superficial or real towards Him?
5 Do we have tears of love and intense trust in our eyes when we think of Him?
6 What relationship makes us comfortable with Him?
We go to Baba so that He might lighten our problems and burden. For me I approach Him as I approach my father. I know a father never refuses the whims and fancies of His child. I feel secure going to Him because I know I can play with him Him and twine Him round my little finger and tug the strings of His heart with my voice filled with love and faith in Him. To go to BABA one needs to have the Heart of a Toddler. Do we have one?
When a child approaches father there is a sense of apprehension, uncertainty, but a child is never scared of father. Child trusts father more than his own life. Child knows that father would save it from any calamity. The feeling is that of Awe, apprehension but never scared. It is filled with love, trust and faith. Father never deliberately harms the child. Yes, He might refuse to give certain things because HE knows they are not good for the child. However, Father never condemns the child, condemns only the behavior. Do we have that trust towards Him filled with love and awe?
As a child, one goes through phases in life, gets new friends, is fascinated with the world, and tries to explore it. But when the need arises and until the child is independent financially and physically, it always runs to father. Even in spiritual relationship with BABA, our father, we run to Him though we might feel we are wandering away from Him. Remember we are tied with strings to our feet and HE draws us near Him when HE reckons we are straying. Do not fear, fly but remember our strings are in His hands. Once we elevate spiritually then we merge with Father and we are one with Him. Do we feel comfortable straying away from Him? Do we feel guilty that we did not show physical or formal act of worship towards Him? Don't you know we always come back to Him even if we go away physically?
The last three questions are based on each individual and their perception of their relationship towards Baba. Some show emotions while some don't. Whatever is the case - How steady are we in our faith? Do we show anxiety in spite of placing our burden on Him? Then perhaps our faith is superficial, we lack trust. What we say does not come from the depths of the heart. Have you ever tried throwing a tantrum at BABA? A relationship filled with deep emotion of love is healthy. Ever observed the feeling of warmth in a relationship that exists between a father and a child? A child who is confident that Father always loves it in spite of the tantrums and knows that it has the freedom of expression of its feelings and will still be loved in spite of shortcomings exhibits such feelings and grows to be a healthy individual brimming with self confidence. Let us try to show these feelings towards baba when the whole world has turned its back on us and we feel betrayed. We know we cannot express our feelings on fellow Humans, but why not take advantage of this old man who is waiting for an expression of love, any expression of love from us. I can feel being enveloped in His warmth and feel His breath on my hair as He hugs me towards His heart.
I see this relationship between a child and a father. When I see my children interact play, throw tantrums and refuse to do what their father says. I see a new relationship of love and trust growing where each one tries to accommodate the other and forgive. Then after few minutes they run towards each other, hug, and play around and it is hard to see who is child and who is adult. Perhaps we need to forget that we are adults and behave like a child while interacting with BABA, and express our needs as a child does. We might need to engage in solitary play using our imagination and carry on internal conversations with BABA, and explore a new world of joy peace and happiness, which is always filled with love. Perhaps this would change our behavior, outlook and intensity of relationship we have with Him. Let us look for an unconditional expression of love and explore new avenues for establishing relationship with BABA. Life is too short; let us rejoice in His warmth.
(Contributed by Anitha Kandukuri, Canberra, Australia)