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Om Sai Ram!

Dear All,

Today with Baba's blessings , I got to read an experience of a devotee. I have no words to say.am having tears in my eyes...it's one of the best experiences I have ever read. Our Baba is so great!! I thank Baba for letting me come across such a great leela of his.

-Kshama

DEVOTEE EXPERIENCE

How Shirdi Saibaba Helped in the Smooth Passing Over of My Dear Son

The hit and run accident and on the spot passing over of my 18 year old son on this years’ Valentine day at a Flyover in Delhi left me in a state of shock. In fact, when I was rushing to the hospital after hearing about accident of my son I was sure nothing would have happened to him. But I was totally in for a shock when I found his body in the mortuary at AIIMS. First words that came out of my sobbing husband were ‘Woh chala gaya. Tere SaiBaba jhoote nikle’.

I could not believe how could Baba do this to me as I was always so devoted to Baba not only during crisis but even during happy times. I always chatted with him as if I were talking to a friend. I was always thankful and grateful to him and always felt that I must have done something very nice in my previous birth to deserve this kind of happiness. After looking at the lifeless body of my dear son, I hated Baba. What was the use of so much of devotion, belief and faith in Baba when he could not save my son’s life. Maybe I was worshipping the wrong God. I was content with whatever I had, I did not crave for more but still Baba gave me this pain, which was so unbearable. Was there any Baba at all or not? If I have to suffer for consequences of my karma, in any case, what was the use of praying to Baba? He could not save my son’s life. May be ‘meri bhakti mein shakti nahin’. I don’t know what type of devotion do you want, I asked Baba. If you do not like my way of devotion then I will not worship Baba or anybody, I resolved in my mind and was also vocal about it to other Baba devotees.

Everyone coming to us for condolences was also wondering how could somebody who was religious, worshipped and had so much faith in Baba suffer like this. I also asked Baba how he was feeling - ‘tumhari badnami ho rahi hai’. In fact, I had sent a letter to Baba on the day of this accident itself through my friend (incidentally called Shama and a true Sai Baba devotee) who was going to Shirdi with a request to call my husband, our two sons and me to Shirdi. But my son passed over even before the letter reached Shirdi. My friend got my SMS when she reached Shirdi. She informed that this was the first time she forgot to take sweets for Baba with her from Delhi as was her normal practice. So she went to Samadhi mandir without sweets and she said Baba was looking sad that day. I knew I was crying and so was Baba.

Later on, when I was little more composed and I reflected on the events that had happened a few months before my son’s physical departure on 14th Feb, 07, I could sense all the things Baba had been doing for me. In my grief I was just not able to understand. I was wailing all the time as to why Baba did not save him. My son could have been hurt badly but he need not have left us forever like this. How will I worship Baba after this? But something in me was telling me that even Baba was shedding tears with me. But still my faith was shaking. Shradha and Saburi were just looking meaningless to me and I did not want to believe in any God for it seemed useless to me now.

When I joined my duties in office, I took out my diary where I write down some important events of my life. The last note I had written was on 18th Aug, 06 which caught my eye instantly. As per my note, on the previous day i.e, 17th Aug, 06, a fibre murti of sitting posture of Saibaba (one of the two murtis I have) which I had been worshipping for a long time was accidentally hit by a ball by my younger son and it fell. Even though it was made of an unbreakable material, it broke. Baba's head was severed from rest of the body and I was shocked. I had recorded this in my diary note and written ‘what problem of mine have you taken on yourself Baba’. Incidentally, my elder son (who is no more now) went with us to the bank of the Yamuna to drown the murti properly, while all the time I was feeling so sorry at what had happened and kept asking for forgiveness. As time passed, the memory of this mishap faded.

I was reminded of this mishap only after my son departed from this earth in Feb, 07. It struck me that Baba had perhaps given extension of life to my son by giving his head but still I was not so sure about it. But it did make sense somehow because my son had also succumbed to his head injuries. For the six months after breaking of ‘murti’ both my husband and I were spending a lot of time with our elder son without realizing that he was to pass over soon while Baba knew this all and the following records how he did this:

• My husband holds a senior post in a central PSU. During Aug, 06 end, he had some altercation with the top most level following which he was suddenly transferred, posted and relieved immediately to join at a remote area in central India which was not even a family station. He left and joined there but after few days he fell sick suddenly. He said he never ever felt sick like this before.

• My elder son went all alone (on his first trip) by a late night train to give support to his sick father. One week later, both of them returned to Delhi and my son told me not to send his papa back to that remote station as there was no work at all for him there and also that if he goes there he will fall sick. So in 25 years of his service, my husband was on leave for four months and stayed at home with his late son day and night. To give moral support to my husband I also took leave in between and stayed at home. All along my late son gave us moral support. He would encourage his father to quit his government job and join some MNC instead. Do not be scared of anyone Papa, he said.

• All efforts to reverse these transfer orders, either politically or even administratively, were failing and we were wondering why this simple problem was not getting resolved. I used to pray to Baba to do whatever was good for us and also to make us strong enough to withstand this professional crisis. Those days my prayers to Baba had increased manifold. All the time I was doing ‘naam jaap’. I could not sleep properly, so at night also, I would keep looking at Baba’s picture in my bedroom and ask him why this was happening. My intensity had increased so much that I could now compose and even sing Baba’s bhajans with zeal all the time, sure that something would work out and my husband would ultimately join his duties. All we needed was to have Shraddha and Saburi. Baba knows what is good for us and why He is doing this, for He only knows the whole plan of our life while we only see our life in bits and pieces. Our life had come to a standstill.

• Both my husband and I were on leave, so we would go to various malls etc and every time we would end up purchasing things for my elder son only. His clothes, his shoes, his belt, his gloves etc. At home I would end up cooking his favourite food etc. Obviously, Baba had given us time to spend with our son. My son who did not believe in God earlier began going to Gurudwaras with full devotion on every Sunday. He even changed password of his computer to ‘saibaba’. He visited Saibaba temple also with us on the New Year. He said, he did that to make me happy. He became so attached to me in last few months that he began discussing everything under the sun with me, his smoking, his girlfriend and his after college activities. I was so happy at this special bond that we established with each other during his last few months. And to think today that Baba was behind all this.

My son became so religious, calm, mature, helpful, compassionate and understanding in his last months. Baba was doing all this and internally changing all of us. He was keeping us together during the extension of life that he gave to our son. With Baba’s blessings, my son had developed so much of wisdom that he knew how, when and where he would pass over. Of course, we came to know these details only after he crossed over to the spiritual world leaving us in tears. His favorite rock band is named ‘Nirvana’. I have placed his small picture in the lap of Baba’s ‘murti’ in my home because I know he is in Baba’s light now. And how do I know this. Three things happened in the space of one month each.

1. During the mourning period of 12 days, I was so upset that I would tell everyone that my praying to God did not help in saving my son’s life so I have stopped believing in God. One unknown lady came to meet me especially in those days and told me that though she did not know me she wanted to meet me and tell my that my son was in a very happy and blissful state and that I should not mourn his passing over as he had been called to God’s home for his further higher spiritual education. She referred to Yogananada’s Geeta and some of its extracts that she had brought with her. I felt a bit comfortable and when she left I saw a SaiBaba sticker on the rear glass of her car and I thought how kind of Baba to have sent her to comfort me.

2. One month after this, when I was alone, I wept bitterly in front of Baba’s murti and prayed from the depth of my heart. I asked Baba, ‘why did you not save my son Baba? He could have been hurt but need not have gone. Where were you? Unless you give me a reply to this question yourself I will not believe anyone. I compared myself to His devotee ‘ the doubting Hari Kanoba’ mentioned in Satcharita. Half an hour later, my husband came and suggested that we see the SaiBaba serial on Star plus. I said that the serial must be over and I don’t want to see it anyway. But he insisted that we see the last scene at least. So the TV was switched on. The scene was where Bhagat Mahalsapati is forced by Baba to go home and when he reaches there reluctantly, his sons dies in his arms singing Baba’s aarti. Everybody around is surprised as to why Baba could not save his favourite devotee's son’s life. SaiBaba tells Mahalasapati that even Krishna, God himself, could not save Pandavas sons. Your son was meant to be with you for this much time only. This all ‘lena dena’ is due to our ‘rinanubandh’. Therefore, one should not grieve. If Baba had not sent him home he would not have been able to meet his son at the end. Similarly, Baba had arranged circumstances in such a way that my husband spent his leave with his son during his last six months. Not to mention that my husband was lucky he kept away from that controversial posting because later on various enquiries were ordered and my husband was saved as he was on leave. Thanks to Baba.

I had a dream around one week before my dear son passed away. In my dream, I saw pictures of mostly all the Gods – Shiva, Krishna, Rama, Bhagawati etc – but SaiBaba’s sitting posture statute was lying on the floor with a white cloth all over it. Only the forehead was partially visible so that I could recognize it was SaiBaba. I could not understand this dream and I asked my dear friend Shama why I could see faces of other Gods while Baba’s face was covered with white cloth. What did this mean? Even she could not figure out but felt that it meant that I had blessings of Baba and that Baba is with me. However, one week later when we went to the mortuary to identify my son’s body, I saw a similar white cloth on his body. Only his forehead was partially visible and as he had long gold tinted hair, I could identify my son immediately. It looked similar to the way I saw Baba's statute covered with white cloth in my dream. Was Baba trying to tell me that there was no difference between Him and my son. In fact, I started looking up to Baba as my loving son there after. I feel that dream was Baba’s message to me about my destiny.

3. One month after this, while meditating in the garden, I had a beautiful vision. I was meditating in my living room at home. Suddenly, my late son walked in wearing a red Nike T-shirt and asked me ‘why are you sleeping Maa’. I replied that if I opened my eyes, he would go away. He said that he will not go away and that I should get up. As I opened my eyes I saw him standing there and he pointed towards, Sai Baba who was standing next to him. I was totally choked and cried, ‘you have brought SaiBaba for me’. Then I fell down at Baba’s feet and thanked him so much. I could distinctly feel Baba’s off-white thick clothes. Baba said ‘Now you can see that your son is with me. You were unnecessarily crying’. I thanked Baba and requested him to give my son what he wanted. Baba asked ‘What’. I said ‘Give him Nirvana’. Suddenly Baba produced a flame shaped bright light. My son walked into it and spread his arms in happiness once he was inside it and said ‘Thankyou Maa’. The vision was over. I realized I was in garden still meditating.

Today, my husband also believes that SaiBaba had actually given my son an extension of life for a few months. What was predestined had to happen and it happened ultimately. But by this vision, Baba showed me that my son was with Him. Of course, being a mother, I feel the pain of losing my teenage son but I am thankful to SaiBaba for taking him in his light. I am sure that my son has ultimately got his Sadgati, thanks to Baba. I feel blessed.

My son, you are indeed very very lucky. Maa loves you forever.

Vandana Ritik, New Delhi

VERY TOUCHING STORY. 

i WOULD ALSO LIKE TO SHARE THAT AFTER SANJAY'S DEATH, I DREAMT THAT HE IS WITH SOMEONE WHOM HE CALLED GURUJI.  AND GURUJI IS TELLING THAT A SMALL STEEL PLATE WILL DO FOR ME, I DONT NEED A BIG ONE.  I AND SANJAY ALONGWITH GURUJI WENT FROM ONE SHOP TO THE OTHER LOOKING FOR THE STEEL PLATE.  I JUST GOT UP WITH A START.  I DID ASK SOMEONE I KNOW ABOUT THE MEANING AND THEY TOLD ME THAT AS SANJAY USED TO BELIEVE IN SAI, I SHOULD GIVE A STEEL PLATE TO SOMEON POOR.  CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME IT IS OK.

OM SAI RAM

Om Sai Ram!

Dear All,

With Baba's blessings I came across a devotee's exp which I wud like to share with you all.

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DEVOTEE'S EXPERIENCE:

During the year 1991 I was trying for a good marriage alliance for my daughter but I could not succeed in this process. It was on 01-01-92 New Year's day morning I prayed Sri SAI BABA of SHIRIDI and asked for a message regarding the marriage of my daughter. I closed my eyes and opened a page in the SAI SATCHARITA written by Sri Nagesh Vasudev Gunaji. To my surprise it was page 241 chapter 47 and the message was "I told him not to worry about this, as the bridegroom himself would come seeking her".

I was very happy as the message indicates marriage of my daughter will takes place in the year 1992. In the month of January 1992 One of my friends took the necessary details of my daughter so that he will give it to some known person for her marriage. On 17-02-1992 I received a phone call from someone who came from Visakhapatnam to seek my daughter’s alliance. I was in dilemma and prayed Baba, Sri SAI BABA instantly answered my prayer and advised me to go ahead. The boy and their parents liked my daughter and on 20-02-1992, the marriage of my daughter was fixed. I felt Sri SAI has given a good bridegroom to my daughter. The marriage fixed on 10-05-1992 at 06.58 a.m. in Hyderabad. I prayed Baba to help me in the marriage activities and for the success of the marriage on 22-03-1992 in the afternoon sleep Sri SAI BABA appeared to me in the dream in the form of my Father (LATE SRI R.V.RAO) and promised me that he will help me in my daughters marriage and he will attend the marriage also. I was surprised how a dead person (my father) can attend the marriage and help me in the marriage.

IN SAI SATCHARITA chapter 40 page 212 SRI SAI BABA says "I always to think about him for those who remembers me, I require no conveyance, i.e carriage, Tonga, (Horse drawn Cart) or an Aero plane. I run and manifest myself to him, who lovingly calls on me". I felt SRI SAI BABA might not attend the marriage of my daughter in the form of my father. SRI SAI says in the SAI SATCHARITA page 151 chapter 28 "I have no form nor any extension - I live Everywhere" SRI SAI BABA further told in chapter 40 page 213 "See, to keep my words I would even sacrifice my life, I would never be untrue to my words". I totally surrendered to SRI SAI BABA and started the marriage arrangements. In the month of March 1992 wedding cards were printed and as per the directions of SRI SAI I posted First card to Genesh Temple, Ranathambhor, Second card to Balaji Temple, Tirupathi, Third card to Sri Sai Baba in Shiridi. Then I posted five cards abroad and prayed Baba to see that at least one family from abroad attends the marriage.

The day before the marriage I prayed Baba to help me in carrying out the necessary activities. On the day of marriage I was very busy in the morning and could not spare even five minutes time for reading the SAI SATCHARITA. I was having Ahamkar (Pride) that I can spare daily time for SATCHARITA PARAYANA. Sri Sai made me so much busy that I could not touch the SAI SATCHARITA on that day, and he removed my Ahamkar. I totally forgot Sri Sai in the marriage and I was talking to my friends and bridegroom's relatives. It was around 11.45 a.m. the Pandit of Bridegroom has come to me along with a Brahmin and asked me to give some Dakshina to the Brahmin. I thought the Brahmin must be his relative, and I gave Rs.21/- as Dakshina. Then the Brahmin was asking about food. The Pandit has sent him to dining hall to take the food along with other guests. In the dining hall I noticed that the Brahmin who took Dakshina from me was smiling towards me, I felt he may ask more money and so I left that place. I was completely occupied with the relatives and guest and did not even take the food till night.

After the MUHARAT in the morning my well wisher who came to the marriage from U.S.A has offered the Break-fast and told. Had I not taken the breakfast it would have become FASTING day to me. SRI SAI is against fasting and he never allowed his devotees to observe fasting. (Ref.Chapter 32 page 173). In the night before I was going to bed I prayed Sri Sai Baba and conveyed my thanks to him for the success of the marriage. I felt Sri Sai Baba has not attended the marriage and it was Baba's breach of promise. Sri Sai has promised on 22-03-1992 that he will attend the marriage, if Sri Sai Baba attended the marriage in which form he attended? It was a question to me and I asked Sri Sai to kindly clear my doubts. Sri Sai Baba appeared to me in the dream in the form of Brahmin (who took Rs.21/- from me as Dakshina) and was smiling. 

I got up from my bed and stood in front of Sai's Photograph and blamed myself for not recognizing Sai who attended my daughter's marriage without fail. Next day to cross check I asked Bridegrooms Pandit about the Brahmin who took Rs.21/- as Dakshina from me. He informed that the Brahmin is a Stranger to him who happened to come to the marriage. I felt that STRANGER is none other than SAI.

BOW TO SHRI SAI - PEACE BE TO ALL

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Baba you are great! We love you so much. Plz bless us with everlasting faith & unshaken patience.

Om Sai Ram!

am speechless....Jai Sai Baba!!!!!