hey cheenu,
i understand. i used to ask baba for death so many times and sometimes still do(though i try ot to).
If there's one thing i've learnt its that problems and obstacles are meant to make us NOT break us. They will make your character and make you stronger.
Have faith in yourself, in your baba. You can get through this and emerge stronger, better.
om sai ram.
May you be free of troubles n happy by baba's blessings!