om sai ram saiputra ji
sabse pahle to koi mujhe nai samajh raha to main kisi ko kya saabit karu? aj jab main apne rum mei khana kha rahi thi tabhi mumy mere rum aai letne ke liye or mujhe aise dekhne lagi jaise pata nai main khana kha rahi hun ye mera gunah hai ya unke samne kha rahi hun ye mera gunah hai, main turant wahan se uth gayi n dining rum mei ja kar baith gayi garmi mei, pahle to mere kuch dair ansu hi nai nikale magar aj mera dil itna patthar ho chuka hai ki ab use or koi dukhi nai kar sakta............
ye meri kismat hai n mujhe kis baat ki saza mil rahi hai ye bhi mujhe pata chal gaya hai, isiliye baba ko bhi main kuch nai kah rahi ki wo mujhe insab se bahar kyu nai nikal rae hain, ek ghar mei ek hi chat k niche ma ki aisi nafrat bhari nigahe hoi bhi beti bardaash nai kar paegi...........
mera kya kasur hai baba, maine pyar kia ye? main sabse chupa rahi hun ye? maine ghar se paise nikale uski madad karne k liye bz wo musibat mei tha ye? mujhe pata ye galatiyan aj mere liye fansi ka fanda ban gayi hain, apki sikshao k wiruddh gayi main to saza to milni hai, wo bhi aisi saza ki sabse pyar ki chahat rakhne wali paridhi aj sab ki nafrat jhel rahi hai, akeli ho gayi hun main baba magar ek baat batau apko, patthar dil ho gayi hun main aj, dard hai ye pata hai magar mahsus nai kar pa rahi thik se, ya fir shayad aadat pad gayi hai aisi nazro ki..................
zindgi haar gayi main baba............ ap do mujhe saza zyada se zyada main mar jaungi, fir aungi jab aapke paas fir ouchungi sahi jawab kyuki mere jite ji to ap mujhe mere sawalo ka jawab nai doge, n mere jaise paapi se to sab duri bana k rakhna chahenge to aap kyu nai........... di jiye mujhe saza.......... ab thak chuki hun main bus........... bus......... bus.......... pata nai ant kab aaega............. ya fir abhi shayad or bhi bahut kuch dekhna baaki hai.......... magar dekhna aap, jhukungi nai main, apna pyar safal banungi main chahe iske liye mujhe koi bhi kimat kyu na chukani pade, or apko bhi mera sath dena hoga......... main bahle hi kitna apvitra hun magar apki sharan mei hun or ap mujhe yun akela tadapta hua nai chod sakte, ap door jaenge mujhse to main apke or karib aaungi......... magar apko khud se door nai jane dungi main, apni aakhiri saans tak.................
Topic: aapne jeena sikha dia baba.......... (Read 128193 times)