om sai ram sai saib ji n tanu dee,
apne jo kaha ki jo ho raha hai use chalne do, wo to cahl hi raha hai, magar aj khud mere hi rishte mei probs khadi ho gayi hun, mahei apas mei hi ladne se fursat nai mil rahi, ek dusre ki kamiya kalna, ek dusre ko blame karna, ek dusre se compitition karna ki kaun kise jyada dukhi kar raha,
ye cheeze mujhe or tod rahi hain, mujhe meri zindgi ka maksad nazar nai aa raha, kabhi lagta hai ki main apne parents ko dhoka de rahi hun to agle pal lagta hai ki main to sirf pyar karti hun galat to nai kar rahi........ fir lagta hai ki main unke wishwas ko unki peeth piche tod rahi hun to agle pal lagta hai ki main sirf pyar hi to karti hun
main aj us bhawar mei fus chuki hun ki kuch soch pana tak mere bus mei nai
tanu dee
, apne jo kaha wo to bilkul sahi kaha magar mujhe shanti nai mil rahi, main khush nai hun....... jab kabhi pichli batei uth ti hain to maa tane maar dei hain....... n main fir wahi pahuch jati hun jahan se gir kar uthne ki shuruat kari thi, raat mei baba se bus yahi ek baat kahti hun ki apko ek baar gale laga kar rona chati hun.....
par lagta hai, baba bhi mujhse naraz hain, main unhe mehsus nai kar pa rahi, raat ko sone se pahle sai chalisa padti hun magar dhyan nai lagta, pata nai aisa kyu lagta hai ki baba mujhse door ja rahe hain.........
main baba bin bahut akeki hun, agar unhone bhi sath chod dia to kahan jaungi?
main bahut bade mansik tufan se guzar rahi hun, kahan na to meri family sath hai na mera pyar or na hi baba, is jivan se haar si gayi hun main, or khud se jitne ki ladai to jari hai..........
pata nai mera ant kaisa hoga