hey deva,
aj main fir se apki sharan mei hun, kuch thik nai ho raha baba mere or adil k bich, uparse exam bhi kuch khaas nai ja rae hain, baba main haar si gayi hun, apni ummedo se or apni koshisho se, do pal ki khushi milti hai fir wapas usi mod pe aa jati hun jahan se shuruat karti hun.......main usse door hoti ja rahi hun baba, roz ki ladai, roz purani batein utha kar ek 2sre ko blame karna....pyar to kahin kho sa gaya hai, baat karte hain to bhi aise jaisa formality ho, baba mere is rishte ko bacha lo..
aap sab jante ho baba, aapse kuch chupa nai hai, maine kya saha, kis hud tak saha aap jante hian baba, main ab or sahne ki taqat nai rakhti baba, mujhe is pagalpan se bacha lo, mere or adil k rishte mei wahi bholapan fir se le aao baba, koi to rasta dikhao, ghut ghut k beet ti ye zindgi ki ghutan ab or nai sahi jati, main haarna nai chahti baba, abho to or bahut kuch baaton ka saamna karna hai, magar jab apni hi rassi dheeli ho to bahar ja kar kya jeet paungi main dusri rassiyo se?
mere andar ab apni zindgi ko le kar nafrat, frustation bud gayi hai, aisa lagta hai mano mere sath kabhi kuch acha ho hi nai sakta, main koi sahi faisla le hi nai sakti...... wo meri ummedo ko pura nai kar paa raha, maine use kai baar kaha ki wat ki want but hua nai aisa jaisa maine chaha, shayad us hud tak nai hua jis ki mujhe umeed thi, to kya main umeed karna chod dun, yahu umeed aj hamare rishte mei gaanth ban gayi hai baba, main usse bahut pyar karti hun, n wo bhi karta hai magar uski priorities meri priorities se alag hain, baba maine usk liye apna bahut kuch khoya hain n kho rahi hun n khone ko taiyar bhi hun magar hum door ja rae hain, dar hai mujhe ki apni frustation mei main kuch aaisa na kar jau jiske baad mujhe bhi pachtane ka mauka na mile..........
meri madad karo deva, mere pyar ko bacha lo, koi to rasta dikho baba
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