Dear All,
I just want to share my sad life to sai baba. dont think its a huge mail. if any one read my story, they will came to know how love is.
I am post graduate and working women. i had enjoyed my life when i am studying my college. At the time of college, i had loved one guy. since of caste difference my parents didnt accept him. But he had loved me very much, he is ready to leave their parents, but i am not ready at that time, since i love my mother very much. i wont do anything if she didnt accept. my mother had did for me everything. my mother always dreams about me that i have to go to abroad.
After 3 years, my mother expired. after my mom death i lossed everything. i feel like better me also to die. but after seeing my father i cant do that, since my father is heart patient, no one is there for my father to take care. i have 3 sisters, 1 is elder and 1 is younger. after my mother expired, my younger sister wants to marry ASAP. Being elder to her, i did her marriage. Many of my friends and relatives gave suggestion to me that not to do my younger sister marriage before my marriage. since later it may be difficult for me to get married. but as a elder sister to her, i did her marriage
on my own hands. i felt very happy that 2 of my sisters are settled happily.
while doing my sister marriage, i met one person, his name srinivas rao. he is very kind of me and he helped me in each and every matter. while my dad is searching matches for me, he expressed his love on me. i also felt better to marry that person who knows about me and who loves me very much. but all my sister are opposite to this marriage. but he convience my father alot. at last my father and his family members accepted our marriage. when marriage is to be held in few days i came to know real truth of that person. i came to know that he was already married guy. any one can think that he married only one girl.
but that is not truth, he married 2 girl and leaving with them. thier family members tried alot to stop our marriage by making wrong calls and giving information about him before talkings..
i had asked why he did like that, he said that the girl whom he married are already married women, so he wants to married a new girl who is not married early and start new life. i had believe his word. all this story didnt known to my dad. since i only think not to inform my dad, since he is heart patient. i got afraid what will happen
if i informed to him. if i lose my father then no one will take care of me.
At last my marriage was over. now my problem started like anything.
i thought he and me had started new life. but it was reverse. after marraige i came to know his real behaviour. he use to boose alot and smoke alot. before marriage i know he will boose, he told me he will take occasionally. but after marriage i came to know he is use boose daily that too even in day time. slowly he started neglecting me. after few days i came to know that he is still maintaining those 2 ladies. on my 5th day of my marriage, he left me at his house in night time and gone to slept with other lady. Really all my dreams lost. i tried sucide attempt also. but some how baba saved me. after that also he didnt change.
i didnt inform my problem to any of my sisters or to my dad. they thought that i am leaving happily. i dont want to make them cry about me. some how my in-laws gave support to me. i stayed with my mother-in-law. my mother-in-law is like my mom. i thought baba had helped me in giving such a nice mother-in-law and sister-in-laws. slowly he stoped to come my mother-in-law place. he use to stay 3 days with 1 lady and 3 days with another lady.
Since of my sister-in-laws push, i moved to bangalore to do some job. i wish to leave him in my life. i concentrated on my job search and nothing else. Again he started calling me and telling some stories. By baba grace i got good offer in singapore. when i am moving to singapore my mother-in-law requested me to give one chance to him. since he changed alot. she requested me to take him along me. since of her words and respect on her, i asked him to come to singapore.
he came to singapore. but till now he is not doing any job. just sitting idle in house. till now he didnt earn single pie. till now iam feeding him like anything. i dont know why life became like this. since marriage, my struggles started. i dont know why god played with my life. i thought i will get rid of all these problems once i settled in good job. even though i settled in good job still my problems are back. i begged him to do something and earn something.
but he didnt. when i ask him to do some job, he raise some argument and he will beat me in that argument. he use to beat me like anything, sometimes blood will come.
After listening to my story, any one will ask me why still i am leaving with him, answer for that is since of my father. i dont want my father to know about my situation. if he came to
know, then i will loose my father. i dont want my father to start weep for me in his last days.
now a days i am loosing my patience. i feel like to die. when no one is there for me on this earth, then what is the use of leaving. but sometimes i will think why should i waste my precious life since of that person.
i wish to make my mom dream true. in that way i am planning to settle in abroad. Baba please help to get out of this problems, please change him and please provide him with some job. Baba i know u r there with me till now. Baba no one is there for me only u. u r my mom and dad. take care of me baba. please make to walk in right way.
please take care of me like ur kid.
sunitha
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