baba please bless me and solve this problem of my life

[aquafish]

Hey...I am online...lol...cudnt sleep...and aaj he didnt come home...apparently he needs a guys nite out so teek hai...

Just feeling low...Will eat something and sleep soon...kaisi ho bhavna...how r things at ur end? weekend bhi kaam hai or r u off?

[bhavna]

om sai ram aquafish
feels good to hear from u
things okay at my end i have stopped meeting him its been 2 weeks now i think we both needed a break, now we jus talk on da fone and look at each oder at da gym...i don know wats goin on between us
i don even say anything as i have promised saburi na to sai
donated platelets tdy its a lil more elaborate dan blood donation but feels nice
u temme? any more talks abt marriage wid him??
sai now plz listen to all of us and pls let me help dat lil girl with ewings...pls sai let her parents contact me will help dem to da best of my ability
sai plz be mercy incarnate ..we all really need u sai really need ur blessings
om sai ram

[bhavna]

om sai ram well wisher ji
how have u been?
havnt heard from u since long??

[Amar_akshu]

OM SAI RAM !!!!!!!!!! BABA shower your blessings..Remove misery and bring joy to all

[aquafish]

Bhavna,

well wisher said she wont be online till monday...

well no i havent met him this weekend..I called him but he sounded irritated so i am maintaining saburi too...he said he will call me back tonight..lets see..u usually never does...my parents r forcing me to ask him to let them talk to his parents..but he gets bugged everytime i bring it up...so i told my parents not to ask me either...I am in limbo state yaar...I dnt have any hopes anymore...I am sorry to hear ur side too..but we will pray and hope for the best...

I dnt want to cry too anymore....I am tired and it makes me feel worse..I dnt wnat pity or feel self pity...It sucks and I just wish baba makes him realise how much i am going thru..I want him so bad....He is with me but not with me...U know what i mean na...i guess saburi is what we have with us...Hope baba sees that...

take care Bhavna..will try to keep messaging...

Om sai ram

[rajiv800]

hi bhavna, aquafish,

just wanted to ask you one thing, i left yogurt for chiliya but by chance i had mint sauce which had curd in it, is it fine, i said sorry to baba already, i did not intend to eat it but i dont know how i did.
bhavna ji, in regards to donation you really did something nice, i donated blood and have got leaflets for platelet donation too but i dont know if i can do it now or do i have to wait for sometime before i can do it, as i just gave blood a few days back only, i have to check from there.
weekends i feel are more disturbing and depressing as there is nothing to do at all
whats new going 
hi well wisher ji how are you.
please stay in touch and keep updating

om sai ram

[bhavna]

om sai ram aquafish
dont worry darl yes saburi is wat we will keep
i know wat u mean cause its da same wid me also.he is dre and he is not dre and dre is nothing we can do abt it
i jus keep my self happy with happy thots i think abt the future and picture myself wid him makes me feel a lil happy
but in reality its not like dat..
but we have na sai wid usi am sure he will take care of it all
hugggeeee
will pray harder for us

[bhavna]

hi rajeev
nice to hear from u
hey dats great dat u donated blood
now u can donate platelets or blood only after 9-12 weeks depending on ur local govt. policy in UK
and wat else is up?
how have u been
even i have started my chaliya, have left non veg alreaady and am offering sai saburi from all of us
na mint chutni is not eating yogurt so don wory at all...sai will bless us all i am very sure of day
om sai ram

[rajiv800]

thanks for the guidance bhavnaji
well i know here you can not donate again for 16 weeks so will have to wait then
i will take half day that day coz it takes about 2 hours here
but the care they take of you is amazing
i gave blood once to my mom and know how it is all done there
its not even a week and i dont have any spot on my arm :-)
well bhavna ji it has been 2 years that i left non veg and in my fav food left yogurt
i eat it everyday its like a dessert for me just plain yogurt after i have my food
but coz i dont eat that often i dont miss it either so i used to just eat that but stopped that too
i really dont know what to do even i am keeping patience
what do u do over the weekend
i am just heading towards gurudwara now its so cold not getting any warmer here i dont know y
its just pouring here today
good time to have pakodas i guess with t :-)
anything new on ur end

om sai ram

[bhavna]

om sai ram rajiv
hmmmm my mouth is waterin at the mention of pakoras
i was really use to spendin my weekends with this guy but its not the same nemore..havnt met him in person in almost 2 weeks now we jus talk on da fone and exchange glances at the gym
earlier it was very difficult i din know wat to do den i use to sit in the sai temple all day long on my off days
tdy is sunday n i am wrkin so tomo will be my off will jus stay at home will either study or make my presentation lets c
to be very honest i am dying to meet him have actually been praying to sai to let me spend at least 10 mins wid him if not more jus feel like holding his hand and sitting next to him 
but i have promised saburi to sai so will jus wait patiently
u temme?
wat u upto?

[aquafish]

Hey Bhavna and Rajiv,

Gud going with ur chaliya..I dnt want to do anything yaar...mann nahi kar raha hai kuch karne ka...kal poora din kaam pe guzar gaya..had an emergency weekend call...so was working...raat ko i met him with his friends for an hour..we didnt talk directly ...usually woh weekend ko mere saath hitha hai....lekin is baar its sunday already and i didnt spend any time with him....kal bhi uske doston ke wajah se mile the...i dnt know what happened tat he is not talking to me..maine message me poocha tha lekin mujhe kuch reply nahi aaya..so maine bhi pehle ki tarah phir se call ya msg nahi kiya..I am waiting..I cried a lot last nite and asked baba to do something....it was my own personal hell...

subah mom ne call kiya...she spoke very well and talked abt everything else than this topic so it was gud...abhi patah nahi what i will do with this sunday...mayb read a book or something....I cant donate blood here..kuch tho immigrants blah blah....

its so wierd I never see beggars here but I saw 2 beggars on the road yday...gave them some money....

[GaneshHariharan]

aqua , respect and love are things one has to earn and not take for granted. i dont know what is wrong with guys of today. they dont have goals in life, they dont want to get committed , want 3-4 girlfriends by the side.... etc (this ofcourse does not apply to all , but a lot out there). agar who apne aap ko president samajhta hai to bhaad mein jaaye . wo aadmi aapke layak nahin jo aapka dil dukhaye. agar usko problems hai to aapko bhi to problems hain. aur problems sabko hai. iska matlab ye to nahin  ki baat nahin karoon aur odd behave karoon. kuch dino keliye , ab app usko dikhayiye ki aapse wo kisibhi tarah behave nahin kar sakta. ek do baar phone nahin uthayiye, agar poocha toh koi excuse dijiye, ek do baar agar woh weekend keliye bulata hai , tell him sorry i am committed etc  yah to raaste pe aajayega ya phir sahi baat nikal aayegi ki woh aapse pyaar karta hain ya nahin. is tarah roh rohkar apni tabhiyat kharaab karne se aapke friends ko aur aapke mummy ko dukh hoga . woh to apni zindagi khushi se jiyega . aapka kya hoga ? come on dear you are capable of doing it . god bless. om sairam, jai sairam, jai jai sairam.

and about giving to beggars "not all beggars are needy ". if you feel from your heart then do it. dont do it just bcos it is a beggar.

[GaneshHariharan]

dear bhavna , rajiv, aqua , listen friends you guys have to get your mind in order and then start giving blood , donating etc. i am not saying what you are doing is wrong but if your mind is in turmoil , you wont be able to do whatever deeds you do in the right frame of mind. you guys have the capability to do it . you are young, you have the strength to do it. dont waste your lives please . i feel like comig over , taking you by your hands and making you do it physically .
i dont know why but i cant wait by the sidelines and see you guys ruin your lives. there is potential in each and every one of you to do something great in life
why are you wasting god given talents . god bless. om sairam, jai sairam, jai jai sairam.

also if i may suggest something, if you are feeling down, go doen to a river or sea or some water near you. and sit there for some time , it really has a calming affect on your mind.

[GaneshHariharan]

well-wisher , kiddo ! where are you

[aquafish]

thank u ganesh ji for that kick...lol..I needed that...its not been like this before...aajkal aisi situations arahi hai..I am done with all this...I just want to be by myself..dont want anybody...the only ppl i talk to is in this forum and 2 friends of mine....i think i want to move on from all this..slow but baby steps towards self improvement...lets see...