Rajiv,
take rest..>Charity begins at home..take it literally..lol..first improve ur health, take care of it, maybe u can initially sponsor some money to some organisation online...if u have salvation army in london or goodwill, donate some old clothes..in churches u have soup kitchens, we cud volunteer there...but mera prob hai, ladki hoon so everyone is like no dont go alone and once i depend on others, its like i am forcing them to do it, so I cant do it...lets see...