Swapanaji,
I do understand what you are saying but after goign through this for long time, you just loose your patience and only fears , hopelessness, negative thoughts prevail in.
I DO have faith BUT most of the time I felt things are going to WORK out for me ( in both things JOB & MARRIAGE) and I have been pushed down to such a extent that I cant get up.
Right now I am under hell lot of pain and really really worried as this is my last week and If I dont get job by this week, I am still wondering where I will go and stay?
ONLY THURSDAY ,YES BABA'S GURUVAR is going to prove me and my fortune.
And I am strongly praying baba WONT disappoint ME THIS TIME. NO WAY , I am going to loose this OPPORTUNITY.
When my last job was LOST on exactly THURSDAY, I felt there was soemthing wrong with my bhakti so I lost my job.
BUT after loosing my job , I go with terrible experiences with my health, with rejection in marriage. and this is happening with no END.
Just this THURSDAY, I have VERY HOPE BABA WONT BREAK ME INTO PIECES.
However NEGATIVE thoughts come in my mind , I am NOT going to bend in front of them.
I am extremely sorry to send in such big post , I was carried away with my emotions.
TODAY is THURSDAY AND THIS DAY WILL DECIDE MY DESTINY. it WONT BE like any other THURSDAYs that passed by with pain and sadness.
Manu