Sai Ram
Gayathri, dear, I'm afraid you'll have to. If it is too difficult to speak to him, write him a letter. Tell him about how you feel and how deeply sorry you are, that you know how much he must be hurting and ask him to forgive you. If you've lied to him, tell him the truth now, outright and openly. Chant SAI's name while doing so ... have patience and you will see how right beloved Ramesh is with what he is saying ...
Om Sai Ram
Astrid
Restless was my heart till it found rest in THEE