Jai Sai Ram Jubs Behan!
I can imagine how much hard time you are going through.
Like everyone, I think you are also suffering the effect of your past karmas. Sister, Baba is always with you. Baba said that one has to suffer the effect of one’s past karmas and there is no use crying about it. Accordingly, I feel Baba is giving you strength to face the effect of your past karmas so that your previous sins are washed away as early as possible.
We are all the children of Baba who is the creator of this universe, but he is also bounded by the laws he made to run this universe. Baba is ocean of mercy. He may already be there to reduce some of the ill effects of your past karmas and some part of it you have to suffer.
Pray to Baba for his mercy and always thank Baba as he is always there with you.
Never ever doubt Baba’s intentions as he cares for our welfare more than we care for ourselves.
In the meanwhile, please read Sai Charitra daily and try to meditate/concentrate on Baba’s picture. Also, visit Sai temple near you house and keep praying.
These all activities will help your gain peace at heart. Direct all your wishes to Baba and leave the tensions and rest of the work to him.
Always try to act as per baba’s instructions.
I pray to baba to always take care of you and keep you close to him.
May your desires come true and may you live a happy married life in the near future.
I pray to Baba to transform your husband to a loving and caring person who will take care of you.
Om Sai Ram!