I have decided varsha not to focus on happiness... i am going to say to my mind... never expect even happiness...
If it comes, ok, if it not comes,, will live without that..
I was asking babaji to give me peace/happinesss in my mind & i am expecting that too happen... but my mind is not rest in peace permanetly... so again worry starting...
i am not losing faith on babaji... but i am started telling my mind not to expect peace... it is better not to except anything even happiness..
My inner soul (somewhr) telling that this struggle is for my good... i know he will not leave me.. but he is silence for something.. i dont know wht his next move aftral i am just human being...
What to say varsha.. pl do not stop prayer for me.... i am expecting this with everyone who is reading my post...
thanks varsha for your prayer..