Sai pls help me , accepting my sins

[phaniperi]

Hi All

i am new to this forum, i am struggling a lot with my health for the last 10 months.
i have consulted various doctors and spent huge amount of money, but they could not identify the rootCause.
still i am getting pains all over the body.  i am a  devotee of sai (not a great devotee but i believe that there
lives a super power which  rules us i,e God Sai ) , even though i got sick,
i believed him that he can cure my disease..but still i am facing same. i have taken his duni mixed in water taken daily.
i dont know why he is not helping me to recover from this stituation.i have read  sai charitha and also guru charitha ..but no use.
i might have done some thing wrong, thats the reason sai is not helping me. I remember that when i was 17 years old , i behaved
in decently with a girl aged 13 , i did not crossed my limits but a child of my age should not behave like it not only this when i
turn back i can see a lot of stupid things that i have done. so I firmly believe that
present rough phase in my life is due to my past sins. i read guru charita,in that sai has said that one should be punished for his sins
and also   his punishment can be completely or partially be removed if he accepts his mistake infront of every one .
thats the reason why i am saying this to all of you. in my past i have made mistakes but i realised taking birth as a human
is due to my earlier life's punyam so i should not waste this life running after money ,fame, sex, family..etc
so daily before praying to god , i accept my mistakes and pleading guilty ,i ask baba to give me one chance so that i can
prove my self to be a good man. so i started donating some amount of my salary to babas annadhanam fund evey year.

can any one suggest me how can i prove to  sai that i have transformed and asking him to give me a chance.
All who are reading my story , if you believe that i can change completely  ,pls pray sai that his blessings should be there with me
and i should recover from my health problems. and my humble request is  can any one send me duni of sai , so that i will take
it as medicine daily after praying sai. and also tell me what are the ways i need to pray god to get his blessings

[keerthisai]

PHANI JI

OM SAI RAM

First of all welcome to this ONLINE SAI FAMILY, It is indeed by BABA's garce showered on RAVI BHAI we are all here, We have not seen each other and all are from diff parts of the world/ india here.

BABA has brought you to the right PLACE thnaks to BABA for gicing another brother / sister in this family.

Pls read the folow posted for someelse but has relevance to UDI, it is a persoanl exp and i am totally cured it is simple faith and complete surrendder is required with BABA not merely having UDHI will not siffice.

QUOTE: PINKI ji

Dont worry BABA is with you, He will not let his children down at any circumsatnces. yes you right BABA is the only person who will understand you, speak to him, like you speak to your father and he is always besides you to guide you. One instance, i shall tell you here.

Last Sunday we celebarted GURUPOORNIMA and that day the work we did was really tiring but BABA gave all the support and energy to work. the same day I had some pain in the anus and thought the whole days work with fast and should be OK within hours I thought. Morning pain was more, going to toilet was imaginable pain and next day was still bad. By tuesday evening I could not even sit in one place, I am working women, wed, thurs, fri were totally bad. No words to express my problem. Office is indespendisble, at home there is no excuse.

Before I go into the real .... let me tell you Me and my husband are stauch BABA bhakat and we never visit any DOCTOR / Hospital wahtsover is our health probelm ( since last four years now) and we have been guided by BABA also in the right way.

Seening me suffer on Friday morning my husband asked Should we ask BABA and visit any physicain or can you pull on leaving to BABA. I said no DOCTOR, let me continue amy be some other Big thing which needs to happen is being solved by BABA this way.so let me suffer it this way. So I prayed to him and left office the same evening OUR CD WALA Bhaiya brought us some Prasad he said it was UDHI AND PEDA from SHIRDI ( some customer gave it for him and he is sharing it with us) When we came home and opened there was no UDHI, no PEDA, but it was the WHITE sugar like round (GOLLEWALA) prasad direct from shirdi ( though we dont get prasad everytime, because not much people go to SHIRDI from our place), immediateli tears rolled my eyes I said they are nothing but TABLETS, yes the same night i started presuming it to be tablets giving by BABA for the ailment and still continuing 2/3 morning evening, Yes next day (sat ) morning it was much better. Only going to toilet was a problem, sitting standing and walking pain subsided a little and this morning (sun) not totally subsided but still those tablets from shiridi will make me helathy again is the faith needed.

The stand that we have that we will not visit any DOCTOR or hospital made BABA send me tablets in the from of prasad from SHIRDI. GREAT DHANVANTRI HE HIS, He has done many operations for his devotees in their dreams and people have scars of the opration but not gone hospital for the same.

SO PINKI ji BABA made me narrate this incident for you, though I thought how would I tell an ailment of anus. ( it has come on its own and i dont know what it is and i will not be bothred what it could be, Because BABA will take care)

So dont feel sick just try having UDHI with full faith that BABA can cure it in know time, your next post you will surely share with us that your health is improving. If i remeber right I have read that your reports are normal, Then pls have UDHI with utmost care and you will be guiding many others that when BABA is there problems are not even equivalent to dust.

You must be feeling BABA has given you may be all comforts hence you are leading the best life, BABA has made us see both the worst and best of life. Still striving hard to reach some goal and i am sure he will sail us through.

Pls excuse me if anything hurts in the process of replying.

UNQUOTE

we are HUGE SAI FAMILY and lawsy there to support you pls be a part of family and enjoy being here.

Rgds
Keerthi

JAI SAI RAM

[parulsai]

Dear Phaniperi

Om SAI Ram

main aapko bata nahi sakti BAba kitne mahaan hain. aap un par bharosa rakho , wo aapko jaldi theek kar denge . use udhi constantly with water. aap zaroor achche ho jaoge. keerthi je ni bilkul theek kaha hai.

may BABA bless u .

tk cr

parulsai.