hi rahul.
recently i read some good book and would like to share with u watever i read. i'll be precise.
most of the succesful ppl like swami vivekanand and many others believe one thing-- wat we are today is the result of wat we have thought earlier. our mind is a wonderful thing . and this universe is like a jenie. when we think something , all the powers of this universe behave like our servants and some mysterious power starts working in way to make wat ever we think , into reality.
for eg if u wish to own a car. all u have to do is close ur eyes and imagine urself driving that car. feel like u r driving it. visualise urself in it. then believe that u r going to get it. and be ready to recieve it. u will get it somehow. becos the nature will make things work in such a way that u will own it. dont expect miracles. u may get some idea to own it. or u may get some idea of a way u will own it but u will own it sooner or later.
but u must believe postively in it. the moment u get tired and think that no its not happening , wat happens is the universe which is ur servant behaves in that way u thought and it will again make things negative.
so its necesarry to think postive and keep it persistant
u will think that i m telling you so much then y m i not applying it in my life. so friend i m trying my best to do that. but in ur case, u have to giv hard work( which i know u r giving ) 90 % and keep the 10 % postive thinking. and i m sure u will succeed . but in my case(which u hav read in my post) i have to 100 % have faith in this energy. i m trying hard to do that but i m not a saint to attain so much stability of mind.
so its difficult for me not to think of past. but i m trying it. u r lucky that u jus have to be positve jus 10% of ur goal. rest is ur hardwork
i will only say one thing in the end. the more u will think of the past the more u r stopping ur future to come to u. remember brother. there r no mistakes and no defeats. only LESSONS to be learnt from our defeats and mistakes. those who follow this principal r always happy and gain enormous success. and as u said for me, i m sure baba is jus trying to do something good for u. all u have to change is ur attitude towards ur problem. everybody has problems and far more grievious than ours. we cant change them. but we can surely change the way we want to think of our problems.
i m also preparing for an exam and hope to score good in it. cos i dont have a second attempt.so i m tryin my best for it. and so i will pray for u also .
THINK ABOUT IT
sai ram