hello,
u knw to be frank...even though i have put everything to destiny...
but still even when the thought of losing prasad comes to my mind, or i feel i will never be able to marry him, or if he is not in my destiny...i feel very sad, i start sweating and get tensed. i dont knw but i get scared...
and my head becomes heavy and i feel like crying.
i cant lose him baba...
sometimes when i think abt his behaviour, how he shouted at me, insulted me, how he cant make his parents understand, just listens to watever they say and can even sacrifice my love for them...i feel insecure...i feel will i feel secure after marrying him? or will i be always tensed, as to wat he will do to me, if his parents tell him to kick me out or something...i get more tensed thinking this...
but baba i pray to u...i bow my head, please baba make the conditions well and fine...and let me feel secure and safe with prasad, so that i wud feel safe to marry him. his parents are against, please convince his parents. please baba.
as for my friend who liked me, i wish he lives very very happily with the gal to whom he is committed, and if its not in my destiny to give him love, then i wish that gal shud give him love more than i cud have given. keep them both happy.
but as well keep me and prasad also happy with each other in the bond of marriage.
baba and please forgive me, coz i cudnt give someone his love, a person who loved me, i didnt do justice with his feelings for me...but i'm asking for my love.
maybe i'm sounding selfish, but please baba...please fulfill my wish to marry prasad.