OM SAI RAM
Dear Sujithra3,
no offense, but it's people like you, who just strengthen my FAITH in Baba.
This is the difference Between you and My Baba.
You counted and measured all that you did for Baba,, and grumbled when he hasnt given you what you "wanted'. Instead he gave you what you "needed". But your eyes were so shut with "I, Me Myself" that you just couldnt see that.
But Baba hasnt complained or reacted at all to that. He has accepted whatever you gave him, 1st devotion, and then abuses. His Smile is still intact. He is not angry this bit. His love for you has not changed.
In all this you are the LOSER. If anything this post showed your character. If you cant trust Baba, you can never trust anyone else. You can only live for yourself and your ego. You can never live for Baba and his glory.
For you Baba is like ATM Machine. Punch in numbers and get your money. But remember, even in ATM only that much money will come out, as much your worth or credit. So the same happened with Baba. You wanted 1 Lakh favors, but the quota in your Blessings account with Baba was only pennies. How can he give you 1 lakh favors then?

Go, Build up your Credit and Worth and then came to this "ATM".
All, I feel, for people like you is "PITY".
Anyways this world, is round, and What goes around comes around.
You will come back to Baba, that much I am sure. And then you will be much miserable than now.But my Baba will still be there, Smiling as always.
Till then...Keep praying!!!