Dear sis Daliya, whatever you said all is very good. But you know it is the rule of nature when we love some one, so we always fight with the same person. You know why ? because we know he'll never leave me. Same thing we have for God. Sai deva is my love, & I accept all his love always. He always show me his love as he knows that, her this baby ask always for more love. And one line said by Mother Teresa is always I have in my heart......" how can we love God who is not before our eyes, if we don't have love for the human. who are before our eyes."
I don't know Daliya from which religion U r but I think you are christian. you know better but as Jesu teach me, it is the only God we share all to him. But after all our mistakes he never forget to love us. He had accepted the invitation of a bad person & accept the service of lady Madeline.
God is beyond our small human thoughts.