Dear KellyT,
Life problems are always there. Some get them in the early years of their life, learn lessons quickly and become stronger in future when they can handle them better. Some end up having a wonderful life in their early years and face problems later. But there is not a single person on earth who doesnt go through tough phases like the one you mentioned you're going through.
Its simple my friend. Let me tell you... problems never vanish. They never will. No one can escape them. But EVERY PROBLEM HAS A SOLUTION & GOD HELPS US FIND THIS SOLUTION making it easier for us to bear or survive. Killing oneself can never help escaping the problems, pain and tests God has decided for our soul. Whether in this world or above we have to, have to go through these phases and lessons, tests and challenges... We do not have a choice. Its not in our control.
But whats in our control is -
1. Sharing our pain with others and lessoning our burden
2. Getting help from as many people as possible by being willing to help oneself
3. Trusting... God and others around who are genuine well-wishers
4. Believing with complete faith in God, that whatever happens is Gods will and is good for us. If He's put us to this, He'll bring us through this too...
So, FAITH
5. Constantly working on onself and doing all thats in ones control to let the situation not affect one... and to grow out of it successfully stronger, thus emerging a winner.
Life problems are always going to be there. Lets be grateful to God that we're all here...where there are so many people to guide and hold each other. Please read Ganeshji's post again. He's so right.
I know its difficult to trust, but if you may wish to share your problem... there are many knowledgable, spiritual and wise people at this forum who can help and who will never let you succum to pain. Pain is there. But you need to be a fighter, right?
God Bless you and relieve you off all your pain.
Om Sai Ram