help me BABA,im begging you for the last time...im not able to live any longer

[KELLYT]

GOD SAIBABA,

I've waited and waited for ur grace but ur not responding .y baba ? I'm not able to bear with this life anymore...ive been asking for ur help for the past 8 years but ur just not listening to me.day by day,my problems are increasing and being happy has becum a very rare thing in my life...no matter wat i do, everything goes wrong...even if i do gud to anyone it seems 2 them as though im harming them...none of my frends have been true to me...everybody keeps stabbing me in the back...there are innumerable problems at home...im not able to concentrate on my studies also.....in short,nothing is going gud for me....ive lost all interest to live...im not abe to do anything properly....i really dont know y uve given me life and made me suffer like this......i want out....i want all this to end and ive no patience left in me to wait longer for u to help me.....ive waited for  8 yrs ......please...please...please...please....baba,help me ...dont forsake ur child.... help me now baba...i cant wait any longer ....if u dont help me ,il think that u want me to end my life and that u have no wish to help me .so il end my life as per ur wish.
 om sairam

[GaneshHariharan]

OM SHRI SAINATHAYA NAMAHA.

DEAR KELLYT, THINK OF YOU ENTERING THIS DWARKAMAI AS THE BEGINING OF THE END TO ALL YOUR TROUBLES. IF POSSIBLE , PLEASE READ SAI SATCHARITRA ATLEAST ONCE CHAPTER A DAY AND OFFER A FLOWER AT BABA'S FEET EVERY DAY. YOU WILL SEE CHANGE FOR THE BETTER IN YOUR LIFE SOON. GOD BLESS. OM SAIRAM, JAI SAIRAM, JAI JAI SAIRAM.

[Reet]

My friend what is ur age I dnt know but u know i m suffering the same problems i think so many time to kill myself but is it reall solution....read Sai charitta......then u understand what u want to do.....love Sai and dnt worry he ,ll help U but this is ur Test ...it is a test have shradhha and saburi...........Sai sabki sunta hai pareshaan na ho aaj ka yeh vakt ek din sapna ban jayega........jaldi hi.

[Well-wisher]

Dear KellyT,

Life problems are always there. Some get them in the early years of their life, learn lessons quickly and become stronger in future when they can handle them better. Some end up having a wonderful life in their early years and face problems later. But there is not a single person on earth who doesnt go through tough phases like the one you mentioned you're going through.

Its simple my friend. Let me tell you... problems never vanish. They never will. No one can escape them. But EVERY PROBLEM HAS A SOLUTION & GOD HELPS US FIND THIS SOLUTION making it easier for us to bear or survive. Killing oneself can never help escaping the problems, pain and tests God has decided for our soul. Whether in this world or above we have to, have to go through these phases and lessons, tests and challenges... We do not have a choice. Its not in our control.

But whats in our control is -

1. Sharing our pain with others and lessoning our burden
2. Getting help from as many people as possible by being willing to help oneself
3. Trusting... God and others around who are genuine well-wishers
4. Believing with complete faith in God, that whatever happens is Gods will and is good for us. If He's put us to this, He'll bring us through this too... So, FAITH
5. Constantly working on onself and doing all thats in ones control to let the situation not affect one... and to grow out of it successfully stronger, thus emerging a winner.

Life problems are always going to be there. Lets be grateful to God that we're all here...where there are so many people to guide and hold each other. Please read Ganeshji's post again. He's so right.

I know its difficult to trust, but if you may wish to share your problem... there are many knowledgable, spiritual and wise people at this forum who can help and who will never let you succum to pain. Pain is there. But you need to be a fighter, right?
God Bless you and relieve you off all your pain.

Om Sai Ram

[sairam79]

Baba saibaba please help them immediately  ,please  be with them and vanish their problems.please saibaba.we human beings  cant tolerate much.
love u baba,sai baba.

[KELLYT]

Dear sai bandhus ,thankx a lot for ur comforting words....they've helped 2 alleviate my pain atleast a little.

GANESHji , im doing the 40 days pooja for baba's grace and im also reading sai satcharita daily.even then im having no relief from my troubles.....everytime some trouble crops up, i keep telling myself that BABA will make everything rite...but he does nothing of that sort...im slowly losing my faith in him and most importantly i've (almost )lost all hope of a better life.im tired of having''saburi''.THE ONLY CONCLUSION I CAN ARRIVE AT SEEING BABA'S INDIFFERENCE TO MY PLIGHT IS THAT HE DOESNT LOVE ME....how much ever i think of him as my sole protector he has not accepted me as his child....that is y he is indifferent to my troubles....
 
WELL-WISHER ji, im tired of having faith in God hoping for a better life...it seems as though he just doesnt care wat happens to me....ive come to the conclusion that im a loser and thats y God is also not helping me....

[GaneshHariharan]

dear kelly, you are on the right path . pls do not lose hope (although i know , easier said than done).just a little bit more. you did the right thing by coming to dwarkamai. you will see that in the coming days , you will gradually get peice of mind and slowly the globe will start turning. om shri sainathaya namaha.

[Well-wisher]

No one at this forum is a looser. We are all here to share our problems and pain with each other and pray for each others well-being.
May God show you the solution to all your problems or just get you out of them soon. The fact that you're here shows that God wants you to be a little stronger and hold on for that one extra day, one extra week, one extra month... There will soon be light... We just need to hold on a little longer. And in this journey and process we are all with you. Do not worry. We all pray for everyone at this forum. God loves us. Just has different ways of showing His love. He'll shower you with His blessings soon. Just hold on...

[aquafish]

Kelly,

stay strong..we all r here for u...whenever u feel frustrated, just vent it all out here..as for baba hating u...never...just give him time...i went thru the same thing , its tough to get out of it but just keep saying to urself..baba loves me!baba loves me! and keep doinf the charitha...baba will grant u peace of mind..just be strong..

Om sai ram

[adwaita]

Dear Kelly,

Please do not lose hope. Yeah, at times life seems to be so unimaginable but later everything will be alright. Sometimes we will have our testing time. Please be strong and pray god to cast away your anxiety. Have confidence and do not go towards the negative side and never think about it. Baba be with you always and give you the best.

om sai ram
om sai ram
om sai ram

[Dipika]

OMSAIRAM!Dear Kelly HE who raises a storm calms it too.

Please Trust BABA ji ,HE can light diyas with water.

Every cloud has a silver linning.

Please read chapter 11 from Shri Sai Satchartitra and pray to BABA to remove your problems from your life.

God Sai bless you dear.

ALLAH MALIK!

Sai baba let your holy lotus feet be our sole refuge.OMSAIRAM

[Well-wisher]

Kelly... hope you're fine. Just hold on... a lil longer... one more day, one more week, one more month... We're all with you...
Baba, please bless him with all your love...
Om Sai Ram, Om Sai Ram, Om Sai Ram, Om Sai Ram, Om Sai Ram, Om Sai Ram, Om Sai Ram

[KELLYT]

guys thankx for all ur comforting words....today i finished my 40 day pooja .even now baba has not shown any improvement in my life....luks like he is never gona help me....ive no more hope left at all...sai was my last hope and he has forsaken me....so i give up....i cant hold on to this life any longer....thankx a lot once again ,guyz for all the concern u showed towards my plight....
omsairam

[aquafish]

Kelly,

U just finished it...sit in front of baba and close ur eyes....think nothing except his face and chant his name..have patience...please stay strong

Om sai ram...

[GaneshHariharan]

dear kelly, giving up , i dont think is your style. in my opinion you are a strong person. so where has all that strength gone ?. kelly , some times we have to
look at the practical aspects of life also. prayers to baba are not like putting a coing in a vending machine . he will definitely answer your prayers but please give him some time .... . may sai bless you with the patience and strength to pass these trying times in your life. om shri sainathaya namaha.