sai ram baba. Today is my birthday and I ask you to bless me with hapiness and to cure my ongoing anxiety to help me fulfil my wishes especially in terms of marriage baba as it is ongoing matter since a long time and I constantly get stuck in the past.
I have been very down over a guy named Vikash Patel who was a pharmacist and his engagement broke last year so my mum rang his mother to ask about him...first his mom was interested and then she was not showing much interest in january she said she will let us know...just when my mum asked about meeting up if vikash wants to meet up with me...
So then I did hear he was getting married again this year all thoughts came in my brain as I was sooo upset as I thought i am hearing things, as I really liked vikash from the photo and email although we did not have chance to meet up....I hoped i was hearing things.
Then yesterday his cousin had to tell me that his reception was on saturday! I JUST CRIED AND CRIED AND CONSTANTLY BLAMED MYSELF AND TODAY EVEN i cannot sleep...I asked his cousin what does this girl do etc..was so curious thinking this is his mums fault that i never met him and so lost him, what, why..and why did he have to get married so soon and i did not get chance?
Also I did not read the email....from his cousin as I asked his cousin what vikash does....I do not want to hear or read the email for some reason baba...please baba make the girl be highly educated and she was not introduced the normal way as then otehrwise i will blame myself that i was also interested because he was a pharmacist and a girl who is not educated and has a simple degree like myn took away and got such a nice guy
please make this girl be highly educated baba...and help me to ease the pain, make me forget vikash and tell me the answer if it was our fault or not..i hope its not baba...as my mind keeps on thinking about this..as it always happens to me about a guy i like he marrys someone else..
Topic: please help me baba..this anxiety and constant depression is too much (Read 769 times)