I need justice !!

[abhihemuaol]

Hey Sai BABA
please hum sabki pukaar sun lo baba...we are not bad guys baba...hum sab ka dil pani ki tarah saaf hai, hum jo bhi maang rahe hain poori imandari se maang rahe hain baba...sachche dilon ki pukar sunlo Sainath
Om Sai Ram
Jai Sai BABA

[abhihemuaol]

Hey Sai Nath,
Please meri pukar sun lo baba, mere poore parivar ko aapki jarurat hai baba...
He Sai Nath sunlo baba...

[jubs]

hello abhi,

jai sai ram

pata nhi baba kyun hum logoan ki pukar nehi sun rahe hain?baba aur kitna shradha n saburi ka test lengne?main to puri surrender kar chuku hun kabse  n unki krupa ki bhik mangti hun hamesha.baba abhi ki pukar to atleast sun lo bhale hee na suno.baba aapke sare bacche aapko dilse pukar rahe haim.inti nirdayee na bano baba.

aap hee kahete hain ki aapki dwarka mayee main jo bhi ek bar kadm rakhta hai to uski har iccha aap puri karte ho. yehi hamare liye aapki dwarka maye hai baba.plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz listen to all the sai devotees.

jai sai ram

[abhihemuaol]

jubsji

Om Sai Ram

Kya aap kabhi shirdi gayi hain ?

main abhi tak nahi ja paya hun, do baar plan banaye the par dono baar unfortunately cancel ho gaya, mujhe lagta hai baba abhi mujhe shirdi nahi bulana chahate hain, but i m sure jis din bhi wo mujhe shirdi bulayenge meri saari taqleefen khatam ho jayengi...

agar aap shirdi nahi gayi hain to plz wahan jaaiye , mere khayal se wahan jane se aapki prarthna sweekar ho jayegi...

Jai Sai Ram

[jubs]

Hello Abhi,

Om sai ram.............
Thanks alot for ur suggesstion n prayers .Abhi i can't make u understand whts my problem n since how long i have been suffering from this marraige propsal.propsals are coming  its fixing n at the end its breaking kya baba ko yeh sab patta nehi hai kya.u won't belive  maine to apne dil ko samjha liya tha ki sayad mery zindegi main shaadi hai nehi n sauyad aage ki zindegi sayad bahut kharap hai so baba nehi chate ki meri shadi ho n mujhe jyada taklief ho .coz this unmarried loife is better that after u got married n facing problem.so i had console myselfas i am true child of baba,mujhe bura bhi nehi lag raha tha,lekin meri sis ne meri baat na manker matrimony main meri profile resister kar di n we started searcing once agin n dilip was the person  from whom i had got a express intrest in sept 2006 thru same matrimoy at that time i was not a paid memeber.so tht time ther was no such plan for getting married so dilp's propsal was in decline list.this time after getting paid memeber i just felt like to see once the decline list sayad koi hoga n i founbd dilips propsal  sounds gud.thn i send him a  email i hav posted my 1st email to dilip in my id so u can go n check it.after tht he send me chat request in gmail.n on 22nd jan 20110 we started  chaating n came to knw tht he is also devote of baba n mujhe bahut accha lagi ki sayad yeh baba ka blessings hai atlast baab ne yeh 3n 1/2yrs ka propsal phuir se jidna chate hain.i was not so confident as compared to dilip .he was very sure tht as we both r devotee of baba so baba will not dissapoing us n dilipo was supposed to m,eet my parents  after 15th feb 1020.he only told me, but he was suffering from typhoid he said.coz till now we hav not see to each other,only we were chaating few days n talked over phone few times thts it.


somany positive things he had told me.so i was very sure tht yahi hogi but suddenly he  he changed  thn i thut ki someting has happened n i searched baba in goolge n found this dwarka mayee to ask baba ki why he is doing such thigs with me jab ki main apne maan ko mana le thi sauad meri shaadi aur na ho.baba sab jante hain aur itna dilko dukhate hain,everyday m crying for baba

even i hav posted the chat of mine n dilp u can reda in my id.the very next day 0of our chat i reaceved a sms tht his father is comitted to one of his frineds daughter for his marraige n m sorry.wht was tht bolo abhi.baba ko kya yeh sab pata nehi thga.maine to dilip ko mujhse shadi karne ke liye force nehi kiya th an.tht was apropisal n he shwed me the positive way n i attached immotonally with him.he said he loves me without seeing me .which is not posible i had told him.
i know abhi bab hamesha hamare bhale ke liye hee karte hain but itna dujh deke .itna sab kuch hone ke bad bhi still i hav faith on baba,i know some1 better thn dilip must be ther but yahi tha to baba n dilip  ne mere dil ke sath kyum khela.

abhi i m telling one thimg ther is saying every action ther is an equal n oppsite reaction.
mujhe bahut jyada hurt hua n everyday whn i seing baab n remebring baab i ma crying alot ki baba mee sath aisa kyun kar rahe hain.jitan takleaf mujhe horaha hai dilip ko bhi thoda takleaf hona chaiye,woh aaya baba ne use bheja  thoda din mere sath khela n now wht he is doing n wht he is thking i don't know but m suffering abhi alot abhi n even my family. i stay alone with my broo her,my sis stay at mumbai,parents stay in their place.i was working  but since last one year i m jobless,baba ki rupa ka wait kar rahio thi par sauyad baba ko pata nehi kya hai mer liye n mer family ke liye.i hav decided tht i will go back to my panets palce n will stay with my parents  .her m not feeling gud coz my bro is busy in his life here m alone  ek dum alone.only baba is with me,i read baba's sai scharitra.tomorrow my 7days sai sachritra paran will be over n once agin i will sratr  for next 7days.aur main kar bhi kya sakti hun

itna sabkuch hone ke bad bhi dilip was on line we caht  normal i didn't even asked why he did thsi with me.even he called me  n day b4 yestrday gave mised call twice send me sms  so whts al this,baba kyun yeh sab kark rahe hain aur kya proove karna chate hain.

main ek dum haar gayee hun abhi par bab ki charan nehi chodi maine.

meri ek sawl dilip ko meri zindegi main laye kyun .woh bhi unki devotee hai to aisa hua kyun.



last year i had been to shirdi  abhi n here jab bhi time milkta hai i go to sai mandir n attand the eneing arti mujhe bahut achha lagta hai.i ma planing to go to shiridi this  month but  tiket ki thodi problem ho rahi hai so i know baba chahenge to jarur main ja sakungi. do u know its my wish tht jis se bhi meri shadi ho wog sai devotee ho n har sal bbako ke darshan ke liye shiridi jasakun n jab muje pata chala ki dilip b hi baba ki divotee hai so mujhe sach main bahut hee mhusi hui thi but sab baba ne khatam kar diya.

itna he bolna chahungi baba bless all the sai devotee.
jai sai ram

[jubs]

abhi thanks for question  & answear from baba.but i hav decided ki ek bar mera sai sachritra kal khatam hojaye thn i will write a email to dilip  soths i can feel gud.coz maine usko koi bhi cleraification nehi maangi,kyun ki in was schkked.i thut i got chaet in the name of my baba so mera dimag kam nehi kar raha than at tht time sai san ji ne muhe ek mail kiya n kaha ki today is thursady n u strat sai shachritra 7days parayn  let see next thursday kya karte hain so i belived on sai san jee ' email n didn't say anything to dilip.but tomorrow will send a email,hoping tht baba will help me in my writting,i can't curse dilip as he s also devotee of baba but will say whtever i want to say ciz he played with me in the name of baba .aur baba bhi chup chap dekhte rahe.

u won't belive i asked question to baba  abut my n dilpis relation n abt marraIGE I GOT POSITIVE REPLY FROM BABA PHIR BHI AISA HGUA.pata nehi baba kya kar rahe hain

dilip ne jitna mujhe rula hai agur baba aap sach main mera kuch bhala karna chate hain n meri yeh email pasdh rahe hasin thn yeh aapse meri request hai ki dilip ko bhi utna hee takleaf honi chahiye jitni ki muje,atleast dilip shud realsed ki unsne kya kiya aapke naam se,but i can';t curse him.

wht to do abhi bolo.

jai sai ram

[abhihemuaol]

jubs ji,
Important ye nahi hai ki aap ko jitani takleaf hui hai utani hi takleaf dilip ko bhi ho, important ye hai ki aap ko wo takleaf nahi honi chahiye, past me jitani ho chuki hai use bhoolana aasan nahi hai main maanta hun (aur uska equal dilip ko bhi mehsoos hona chahiye par aap ye sochte sochte apne aap ko hi takleaf dene lag jayengi ki dilip ko bhi itni hi takleaf ho aur aise me past ki takleafon ko yaad karne ka matlab hoga fir se wahi takleaf jhelana), lekin agar aapne aage aane wali takleafon ko mehsoos karana shuru kar diya, to aap depression se severe depression me chali jayengi, jahan se wapas aana bahut mushkil hota hai, so keep your natural happiness alive, udas rehana chhod dijiye...

Mere affair me main severe depression se gujar chuka hun, aur ye samajh gaya hun ki kitna bhi true love kyun na ho insaan dheere dheere sab bhoolne lag jata hai, pehle mai din me 12 hrs uske baare me sochta tha bina effort kiye, par ab meri puraani yaaddaasht kamzor ho gayi hai, infact i have forgot myself ki mai pehle kaisa thaa (shaayad isi ko zindagi ka barbaad hona bolte hain) lekin recently i faced some very dangerous calamities of my life, even mai ek baar police station me baitha tha severe depression state me, aur wapas jaa kar suicide karna tay kar chukaa thaa, (jo kabhi aise situation me na fansaa ho wo kabhi samajh nahi sakta ki begunaah insaan ko police thaane me daant kar dhamkaa kar uske hi family ke innocent person ke conviction ke liye inquiry karna , wo bhi severe depression ke mariz ko, main to apni jaban bhi nahi khol paa raha tha, aankhon me aansoo aate the,tab mujhe is baat kaa ehsaas hua ki true love ke bare me soch soch maine kya khoya hai, mai extrovert hua karta tha par ab introvert hun,why ?  yahi soch soch kar ki usne jitani takleaf mujhe di utni hi use bhi milni chahiye) wo police inquiry wala din meri zindagi ka sabse kharab din tha i admit,  us din laga ki pyar se bade gam bhi hain duniya me jisse apna defense karne ke liye prepared rehna jaruri hai. Mind ko working aur fast working state me rakhna bahut jaruri hai aaj k daur me mind jyada imp hai na ki dil.

Aur prepare hone me jo cheez aade aati hai wo hai 'pyar me mili takleaf' jise roz roz mehsoos karke hum apne mind ki speed kho dete hain, so please develop a feeling of happiness, spare your time with your family & your friends, koi na koi aisi saheli (best friend) jarur hogi jiske saath aap apna samay bitana jyaada pasand karti hongi, usse baaten kijiye, paas na ho to phone par kijiye, but don't keep your mouth shut for dilip, make more friends as much as you can.

Apne aap ko depression se bachana apna pehla aim banaiye.Sai Satcharitra padhna really bahut faaydemand hai, read it daily, aur aap Narasimhaswamy dwaara likhit "Experiences Of Devotees " download kar lijiye, wo bhi bahut achhi kitaab hai.Aur daily half an hour padhiye.

Itne dino ke (6yrs) experience se mai itna keh sakta hun ki bhale hi aap dilip ko na bhool payen par gradually aap ko doosre ladke achhe lagane lagenge (this is wht i feel now) ab aisa lagta hai ki mujhe mere first love se jyada khushi kisi bhi doosri ladki se mil sakti hai jise mai chunu.Ab wo depression ka period beet chuka hai, now i am feeling better, ab meri X mere liye ek common ladki hai, now i can't love her, jitna pehle karta tha utna to nahi, par jab tak akela hun uski yaad aati rahegi, isiliye to thread ka naam "I need justice" rakha hai.

'Change is law of nature' insaan dheere dheere apna past bhoolta jata hai (bhale hi usme bahut takleaf hoti hai), uski zindagi me naye log aate jate hain, usme se kuchh pehle walon se bhi jyaada pyaare ho jate hain (in unbelievable manner).

To aap ye mat sochiye ki aap kisi aur se pyaar nahi kar payengi, aur dilip ki takleaf aapko hamesha satayegi, aap bhi baad me apne life partner ke saath sukhi ho jayengi.Aur us wakt aapko aapke us naye rishte ki keemat ka ehsaas hoga jab aap apna past yaad karengi.Who knows BABA shayad us aane wale rishte ki keemat karane ke liye hi aisa kar rahe hon ?

[abhihemuaol]

Jab mai police station me tha tab maine Sai ko pukara tha ki Agar ab aapne mujhe yahan se nahi nikala to main aapko aur saare gods ko nahi maanungaa, aur suicide kar loonga. But Sai ne meri sun lee, aur main Sai ka bhakt ho gaya.He has saved me from a great disaster, kyonki mai tab LLB partII me tha, aur mere criminal record hone se mera career poora kharab ho sakta tha, bachi khuchi zindagi bhi barbaad ho jaati, but BABA's grace , he saved me,wo case abhi abhi khatam hua hai humare favour me, mai khud usme defense lawyer tha...Sochiye how great Sai is...ab itne bade tension se gujarane ke baad mujhe life ki keemat pata chali hai ki pyar ke alava bhi bahut kuchh hai yahan...

[jubs]

Hello abhi ji,

Sai ram..................

i was expectging some gud news from baba after my shiridi trip like dilip ke papa maan jaye,,,,,,,,,,,,,and dilip had convivced 65% to his father for our proposal.but i got a very sad news which i was not expecting really.yesterday morning at 8am dilip's father got expired which was unbelievable news for me.coz when i was at shiridi his father was not well n having chest pain n got addmitted in hospital on saturday night,even i prayerd for his father in sunday's kakad arati atshiridi ki woh jaldi thik hojayein,yetarday in the train the whole day i was  tried to contact him but he was nt picking my cal nor replying my sms.at  night he called me and told the sad news of his father,i kud not talk to him as it was nt the right time to talk2him as woh loag papa ka antim snaskar karke aarahe the.

see abhi wht baba did ,wht baba has written in my life,now i can't contact him for along time ,i need to wait for him till all the work has been finished.i hav fully surrender myself to baba........

may sai baba give piece to his fahther soul n give all  the courage to dilip to face all this problem.may baba bless him.dilip told me to do the puja for him to baba .today i m really nt feeling gud for dilip.even i prayed for all the sai devotee of this dwarka mayee to baba.baab will bless u all people very soon.

show me some way baba wht can i do?

jaio sai ram
jai sai ram.

[abhihemuaol]

HI jubs ji
I again asked for u frm BABA n got this answer :-

"DO NOT THINK MORE.YOUR MIND HAS NO PEACE.REMEMBER SHREE SAI.UNDERSTAND THAT THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE AMONG LORDS RAM, KRISHNA AND SAINATH, THEN EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT."

plz follow his answer u will surely get benefited from it.
May Sai BABA bless u.
Om Sai Ram

[jubs]

om sai ram abhi ji.........how ru?after along time i heared from u.thanx for ur answear for me....u will nt belive after getting ur 1st answear post yes i was taking things lightly as it has written their ki somebody is ther to guide me n i know it baba only.so in dilips matters mujhe bura lagta hai lekin main aapki ussi baat ko yaad karke  bhul jati hun.jaise ki he is nt replying me n caaling me even .his father got expierd on 8th march the day whn i returned from shiridi.so apne maan ko samjaha leti hun ki woh sayad  work main busy hoga sayad nehi karta hai......sometimes i feel very low...u try to understand my problem n situtuation,coz ours is nt a love one.we met thru matrrimnoy n he liked my profile n i too his.thn he was sure tht he will marry me only still we both hv nt seen to eachother eccpt photo.now his dad is no mpre n m unable to contact him.even he is nt picking da call,sometimes in free time he sms me ki he is fine.we r in touch till now but dil dukhta hai ki proper communication nehi ho parahi hai.agur woh chahta to ek call kar bhi sakta hai but nehi karta last he called on 10th march after tht no call...hope u understand my problems.baba has put me on hold n i know baba is testing my patience.but immotionally i am attached with him thts why its hurting nehi to aur kuch nehi..

m only remebering baba all the time.reading sai saccharitra 1 page daily,reading sai prerna twice daily,writting sai name in paper jitna ho sakta hai,now i hav decide tyo read guru charitra from internet,coz i don't hav tht book n mujhe koi idea bhi nehi tha nehi to main this time shiridi se purchase karke lati.i came to know abt guru charitra  day b4 yesterday on net itself.i hav downloaded it n will start reading  from here only.........main abhi bitch majhdhar main hun abhi no1 can undrestand my situtaion how m feeling.rest everything in baba's hand.will tel u in detail abut me n dilip  in my next post so tht u can understna me well.ours is a miracle one so its really hurting.

but thnx alot for ur support
jai sai ram jai sai ram

[jubs]

can u telme me ki wher i can get guru charitra in hindi version on net..............i hav the english version only....plz help me to find out the hindi one ...........om sai ram

[abhihemuaol]

jubsji, Om Sai Ram

try this site:-
http://www.shirdi-sai-baba.com/sai/%E0%A4%B6%E0%A5%8D%E0%A4%B0%E0%A5%80-%E0%A4%B8%E0%A4%BE%E0%A4%88-%E0%A4%B8%E0%A4%9A%E0%A5%8D%E0%A4%9A%E0%A4%B0%E0%A4%BF%E0%A4%A4%E0%A5%8D%E0%A4%B0-b15.0/

and this :-

http://www.saileelas.org/

go to Books sections...

[jubs]

hello abhi .......om sai ram..........thanx for the link.but u hav sent the link of sai sacharitra  tht i hav dear i want guru charitra in hundi.its difrent from sai sacharitra dear.so if u find it thn telme ok.

how ru n howz things going on in ur side?mine is no chage.things are ups n downs main hai