Losing hope..baba pls bring him back to me. Show mercy to me. I am begging you

[Krithi_mca]

Baba,

Everyday i spend my life in a misery. Too many weird thoughts and no peace. My parents are worried and they were not able to understand what i am going through. I have no one around baba. I am so much stressed that i am not able to concentrate on reading Sai Satcharitra. Please make me to concentrate. Please give me peace in my life.

Om siddha sankalpaya namah

[Krithi_mca]

Baba,

Today i met one of my friend. I cried to her regarding all the problems in my life. she was convincing me. She was checking my purse and found your picture in it. And she told me showing you "He will help you". I felt so good and started to talk about how you made me to come to you and how i felt your presence. I even told her regarding the questions i asked you through the website and answers i got.

I didnt know that she was your devotee. She told me  " I use to talk to him, cry to him and even shout at him when i had bad phase in my life but he never left me. When i feel low, i chant his name and after sometime i feel relaxed. He always helped. I was not strong devotee as you are. But he will be always with you. Trust him". You answered me through him.

I was chanting and writing 'Om siddha sankalpaya namah" for 36 days. After 41st day, It was said to give white cloth to baba. I talk to the poojari ji regarding this and i got the cloth today. I showed it to the poojari ji, he was so happy and told me he need it to be little bit long and gave me the measurement cloth. I went to the tailor shop and gave it to them and found that the lase cloth i got was short. I asked him that how much he needs for that. The tailor replied that " give anything you want".

Day before yesterday i asked you to show your presence to me since i felt that you are not with me now. Today you replied it through my friend.

Be with me always baba. Please make my life peaceful.

Om siddha sankalpaya namah

[3val4india]

@kirthi
That's how i am when I do pooja and sai satcharitra I can't concentrate and my mind is somewhere else. I mean what's the purpose of pooja and readings when I can't concentrate. I always pray that I can concentrate and always do positive things.

[Punzie]

Om Sai Ram, Baba will sure help you  Kirthi.

[Krithi_mca]

Thank you so much punzie.

@3val4india

I understand that. But i somehow find a way to concentrate. I cry and say out loud to baba whatever it is there in my mind. Then i feel relaxed and start doing the prayer again.

[Krithi_mca]

Baba,

Today  i felt more lonely than any other day. I had a fight with my mother and she didn't talk to me from yesterday. I called her today morning still she didnt talk to me properly. I felt as there is no one is around and no one to understand what i am going through.

I went to temple today and sat in front of Baba and started crying and asking him questions like why all these as to happen to me? Why no one is around? why you are making me to suffer again? Atleast give me the strength to handle all these..And asked him "Baba i want to complete my vrat happily, please dont make me to suffer after that". After aarti when i was leaving the temple, I found 3 books of Sai 9 thursdays vrat story in english. I felt so happy and waiting for poojari ji to ask him whether to take that or not. When i looked around i found another vrat book in Tamil (my mother tongue), In the book cover, a child picture was there mentioning "Child born due to baba's miracle". I felt relax that baba is answering my prayer immediately.

You are with me baba, i can feel you everyday. So many times you have showed my presence. Bless me and stay with me. Make my life peaceful baba and i want to be happy in my life and dont wanna cry rest of my life.

Om siddha sankalpaya namah.

[KITTU BSB]

om sai ram

                    krithi baba is defiantly going to help you. You are doing a lot for your love HATS OFF TO YOU GIRL . you know when your feelings are honest & true you can get anything in this world. but above all baba is with you.......... so dont worry  n trust him . i will pray for you dear .


                       sai baba plz help krithi.

                                                                             om sai ram
                                                                                 
 

[Krithi_mca]

Thank you so much Kittu Ji.

I am crying daily in front of baba and today i even had a thought to  commit suicide. Immediately i asked baba to change these thoughts in my mind. I was so restless. When i saw your reply, Tears came out and felt good.

Thank you so much again for your prayers.

[3val4india]

@krithi
You have to live for you're family. Don't do anything wrong. I'm going through alot too. I read in chapter 11 in sai satcharitra that if you read ch 11 everyday you get everything you want but I don't know if I ever get what I want. I don't even get self confidence. I always pray to forgive for my mistakes. I mean this is the time to enjoy our lives.
I hope sai baba give you everything you want.
Om sai ram

[Krithi_mca]

@3val4india

Thank you . I know that i shouldn't think about it. I was praying baba immediately to change the thought. Things are going far worst and im shaking up. I am not able to handle it. Feel like no one is around. I only have baba.

bless me to make my life peaceful baba.

[3val4india]

@ kirthi
Look I really like this girl to and I try so hard to not think abt her but I can't stop. I never understood why Baba let her come on my life again after I forget her once. Now it just so hard. I just live to live.
I know you really like this guy and u seem very nice person so I don't know why baba not giving you the guy you like. I feel same like you, hopeless.

[Krithi_mca]

@3val4india

I am waiting for baba to bless me. Dont know why life is so hard. this is the second time im in the same issue. When the first guy left me, he was the one who slowly pulled me out of the misery and now again he left me knowing everything what i have gone through.

Even at the worst case, i never went to temple to pray but this time baba called me and showed me how to do vrat. This is the first time in my life i am doing vrat. Still feeling like baba has some plans for me. Now my parents are not talking to me properly. All i have is Baba now. Holding on to him.

[KITTU BSB]

om sai ram

                hey krithi first of all just delete this "suicide" world from your mind not for present even for the entire life.   you are not coward........... just fight the problems & you will defiantly win coz baba wiil  always help you. i know it's painful but you know some times baba test the patience of their devotees.   so have shradha & saburi in him. one more thing you are not alone you just see how many of us are praying for u na then how could u be alone??  and one more thing if your parents are not talking to you properly that does not mean that they are not with you.  always respect them & thier feelings.   

           n ya remember you are a very brave girl...........

          sai baba plz plz plz help krithi she really needs your help
                                                                                                        om sai ram

[Krithi_mca]

Thank you so much Kittu ji. Im struggling to find words to express my feeling here. Today i felt the same that baba is testing me. Because he gave me all signs that he is with me everday. While travelling when i call him as "baba show your presence, i want to see you". Before reaching office i will see him, either in any name board or any poster.

I have asked him questions three times till now. First time he replied me to pray to lord krishna and from that day im chanting krishna maha mantra 108 times and reading ashotram daily. Second time i typed my question in the website given in this forum and got an answer as  "Brother remembers you and he will help you. Donate coconut to shree sai". Tears came out of happiness and immediately i donated coconut to baba. Third time when i typed my question, he replied " Everything will be fine. Shree sai's blessings are with you. Do not worry".

Today i read in a website about miracle of sai after  donating a coconut. Immediately i asked him why still he is not pleased with my prayers. But next moment i thought may be he is testing me and i asked him to give strength to me to pass in it.

Thanks for your prayer and not making me to feel alone

[3val4india]

I been I don't even know why this happening to me. I always do positive things but I struggle