lost my love.....

[amiablegal]

Baba i lost my love....

I know this guy for the past 7 years.We met became friends and fell in love.He came into my life when i was in a trance and supported and showed me the right path.I fell very deeply in love with him.I surrended myself to him with all my heart.We planned to get married but couldn't due to horoscopes not matching and my family opposing.My family hurted his parents feelings and they opposed it.He has been disconnected from me for sometime while i was fighting with my family.Then came the most dreadiest day in my life that i never dreamt.It shook my whole world.My guy doesn't want to marry me as he says we are not compatible, my family hurted his parents, because i wasn't there when he needed me, etc.He wants to remain as a friend only.He wants me to marry some guy and be happy.I cried and cried and begged him to give a second chance for us, to re-think what he spoke.But he made up his mind firmly.

I don't know how one who is connected to heart so deeply can break away and become ignorant?My tears don't move him to change his thoughts.It saddens him but he just says i am sorry.He has moved on and after two years wants to marry some other girl.It would been better if i had died the moment when he broke me completely.I kept fighting, thinking positive, not giving up on him but it turned vain.I must have sinned in my past life that i see myself broken completely.I dreamt a life with him having his babies but i lost everything.

One can be practical about various things but when it comes to heart even if people deny they are emotionally bonded.I am emotionally bonded with this guy and cannot live without him.One lives a life for himself yet heart gets bonded with the person they fall in love with.Sometimes i wish i never fell in love but i did.I am glad i met a wonderful person even though he broke me.Its hard to let go of the person you love so madly but i let him go because i want him to be happy and safe.

Yet somewhere my heart keeps a ray of hope that he might realise and come back but its foolish to think so.I'll keep waiting and just waiting.I am hopelessly in love.

I don't know how many days i will be dying everyday.But i am going towards letting myself off from this world.Yet again it doesn't seem practical when you read this but i am completely broken, dead and living a life like a zombie.Its a sin to do so but i am dying everyday and releasing myself from that.

Before i let myself go i want to serve and help needy, pray for everyone.

Whoever reads this topic please remember my story and think before you surrender to the person you love.If you love someone love them with sincere, whole and pure heart.

May love between couples remain with sincerity, pure heart forever & forever...

May Sai Baba bless you all...

OM SRI SAI NATHAYA NAMAHA !!!!

[rr_sai_bhakt]

Dear amiablegal ...

I have lived through almost everything you have written below ...

I have also lost my love ... i had imagined a life with her with babies and all ... we both had infact .. i had also imagined an entire life ... and a beautiful house ... she more than me ... but then some misunderstanding occurred and then everything crashed ... i do not even have a ray of hope now because she is already married to someone else now ...

I went through nearly the same emotions that you have mentioned below ... living with no life ... dying a hundred deaths everyday ... no taste for food ... cudnt sleep in the night ...

Somehow i have lived through it and seem to be coming out of it ...

When ppl would tell me that Time is the Best Healer ... i would think these guys havent loved at all ... I thought that just a few memories of this most special person were more than enough for me to spend my life with ... and i did not need anybody else ..

I could never even imagine myself with anyone else ...

But then maybe what the elders say does have some meaning ... Time is definitely a Healer ... i havent forgotten her but then the intensity of pain has reduced quite a bit ...

People also tell me its not worth it to give any one person so much importance in my life ... I still think these ppl havent loved truly ..
But then these ppl are only being practical .... Maybe attaching your heart to someone so closely should be avoided ...

And to tell you a fact ... since i had no one else to turn to ... i turned to Sai Baba .... I dont know ... maybe he is the one who has been with me through all this and carried me through it all ...
I would think often if he is God how come he did not listen to my prayers? Why did he not unite me with her?
I read quite a bit of literature on Sai Baba ... well he was of the belief that what we go through are the result of our past sins ... and unless there is some divine need ... he also does not interfere with the results of our karmas ... Though he is Omniscient ... and knows our past, present and future ... he will not interfere ...
We have to face the results of our past karmas and only when that debt is cleared off can we start something new... Sai will definitely help ease the pain as we go through the effects of our past karmas ... and then he will guide us as we try to start afresh in our lives ...

Thats what i have tried to believe ... Maybe this tough situation has helped me clear my past debts ....
I have atleast changed quite a bit now ... i was quite a reckless character .... coming home late at nights etc... Have changed totally ... have become a lot more disciplined ... have become a lot more spiritually inclined ... It seems to have brought a lot of peace to me now ...

Though its still difficult to get over all those memories ... I do succumb to them very often ... But then i have improved quite a lot since the last two months ...
I go to Sai Baba's temple nearly everyday .... His teachings have become a sort of guiding principle for me now ...

From what i have gone through, nothing that any one else says will seem to assuage your feelings ... Atleast i used to think that only i know how my heart has broken and no one else can feel that same pain ...

So all i will tell you right now is ... Hang On ... Life is a lot more beautiful than we think ... as time passes your pain will reduce and you will begin to see the beauty of Life again ...

Have Faith in the ultimate Sadguru Sainath .... people have told me that if you have lost that person then its bcos Sai has a much better person waiting for you ... Initially i would just dismiss this sort of talk ... Now i am trying to make myself believe that maybe Sai has his plan for me and maybe there is another person waiting ....

I spend quite some time reading books on Sai ... try it ... it will give you a lot of peace ... it will keep your mind form the painful memories .... It will open your eyes to the wonderful and miraculous ways in which Sai Baba operates ... reading the experiences of the devotees of Sai Baba, who were with him in Shirdi has been quite an eye opener for me ...


So i will just say ... please have Faith in Sai ... please have some Patience .... As Sai says - "This too shall pass" ... "Yeh din bhi badal jaayenge" ..... Hope for a brighter future is the right way to live ...


I will pray to Sai for you ...

Om Sai ...

[Sai_Ram]

Jai Sai Ram Amiablegal & rr_sai_bhakt,

I am going through each and every feelings, emotions that you both mentioned here.
its been 3 months now for me too, and i am living my life just to live because death doesn't want me either.

But i have not lost hope, i have completely surrendered myself and my wish at Sai's feet.. and trust me i do get messages and support from people i don't know that GOD is with me and he wants me to know that. He has literally sent msgs... that has shocked the daylight out of me. BABA has his ways for making us live, i am getting stronger and stronger by the day.. I know no one can HARM me... NO one can HURT me anymore. BABA is my protector.

there are many of us going through the same issues with our love and its just a testing time, so have faith.

Finally after a lot of arguements with Baba, a lot of tears, a lot of thank u's  - I AM FINALLY GOING TO SHIRDI in the next couple of weeks - he has been calling me.. I AM GOING TO MEET BABA!!! but only regret is that i had prayed, promised and wished that i would have gone with my love together to get the blessings.

I WILL PRAY FOR EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU.. if you have any msg. for baba, please do not hesitate to send me a msg.

JAI SAI RAM!!

[ranju]

jai sai raam ! baba ji mujhe badi mushkil say aake darshan ka moka mila hai aap ki icha say main apni beti ka janam din aapke darbaar main manana chahti hoon. baba ji pls meri ticket confirm kerwa do. pls baba ji main aapki beti hoon aapki darshan chahti hoon baba ji.

OM SAI RAAM ON SAI RAAM OM SAI RAAM

[amiablegal]

Dear rr & sai ram,

For me getting through this pain is much more difficult.Not that your pain is less.My family knows this guy and so do few of our relatives.If my parents plan to get me married also i will always be doubted and belittled as i knew a guy since so long.That is the practical painful picture.I am framed all my life now.Even if any guy comes forward to marry me tomorrow back of the mind he'll always be in doubt all his life.Not only that when i gave my whole heart to this guy how can i marry some other guy?I'll be dying everyday having my love in my heart, dying with that and also cheating & spoiling the other guy's life too.That is a Sin! 

I must have sinned in my past life so paying for that now.Love is to let go and see your love happy.Its sacrifice.So its allright.I tried doing whatever i could but i am loser.Somewhere in my heart i feel he might come back but scared to hope and wish.What if i just wait and he never comes?

I have loved with sincere heart with all my heart yet i lost everything.The pain is so unbearable that i am losing myself.I became his wife though we werent married.I never dreamt this day would ever come.

I am living like a body without soul & heart.I'll do something for needy people and let myself go from this pain forever.Its a sin too but the pain is just unbearable.I am letting myself go not due to weakness but out of so much of love within me.I'll be dying as his girl thats a privilege to me.

I just have a request.My love is not well so is his family.

Please pray for him that he is happy,healthy,safe and properous in life.

Please include him in your prayers.

[Amar_akshu]

Have Faith in Sai..He will solve everything..Om Sai Ram !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[akansha]

jai sai ram
plz dont worry,i can understand wat all u are goin thru,i too have many probs of similar kinds in my life,keep thinking abt all this but ur problem actually left me in tears,dont knw wat shud i tel u,just hope for the best n be prepared for the worst,baba is with u im sure n wil always be,i wish ur love all the happiness n sucess in life,il pray for u too.just keep hanging on to baba,im sure all wil get well soon,just leave all on him.
jai sai ram

[amiablegal]

Thank you everyone who gave me support and strengths.

I am hopelessly in love. I let go my love. May be he'll find a better girl than me who can love him a lot. I want him to be happy. I tried really tried but i failed ! 

I have a stupid heart which keeps beating for him. I have died inside but love of baba is keeping me alive for now. He made up his mind. He sacrificing our love for his parents as they are against it because my parents insulted them.

I think no one should ever love someone so truly, madly and deeply because one day your heart might be broken. I was ready to fight the whole world for this man but he shocked me by telling me he doesn't want to marry me. He wants me to find a nice guy and marry him. When you surrender your heart and soul to one person how can you give it to another? It is not a game it's love and it's life.

My tears have gone dry but heart weeps in grief and pain. There might come a day when i will be left without any emotion in me anymore.

Please everyone love your loved ones but don't give yourselves completely. In one word 'arpan' don't do that. What happened to my heart shouldn't happen to anyone else.

May love remain in everyone's hearts

May baba shower his blessings on all of you...

Om Sri Sai Nathaya Namaha ....

[rr_sai_bhakt]

Dear amiablegal,

Om Sai Ram ...

Its been very touching reading your posts ... i really admire the fact that despite having lost the person whom u loved so much, u are still praying for his happiness... its really unfortunate that the other person could not understand the depth of your love.

In the mean time, all i can say is stay strong, and continue your prayers to Sai ... apparently miracles happen when they are least expected ...

I shall pray for you, we all shall pray for you ... May Sai give you a very very happy life ...

Om Sai ...

[drashta]

Om Sai Ram.

It's sad to see you cry so much. Please know that there is a beautiful life for you beyond this experience also. Time is the greatest healer. One day, this incident will look like a distant memory. You won't even remember this guy who dumped you so mercilessly. It may help if you understand that someone who had the heart to leave you now could have done that after marriage also. So, thank Baba that He saved you from marrying an unreliable guy and a future disaster. May Babs give you strength to get back to a normal and happy life.

Om Sai Ram.

[Sai_Ram]

Dear Amiablegal,,

Jai Sai Ram

we all feel your pain and emotions, since all of us who are crying for our loved ones are going through this pain. But yes each one of us handles it differently... i cried, screamed, fought... day and night, infact every second in front of Baba. And now i am dry myself.. sometime when it gets really really difficult to handle i end up in tears.. but yes my heart is in constant pain.. and tears. I can't explain the feeling but i am sure you are going through the same.. all i did and am doing is praying and chanting Baba's name constantly.!

Trust me my hope is still there, after marrying me spiritually in Temple, in front of Baba...he hurt me so much, betrayed me, left me to cry alone and now is back with his family. I have left my prayers and wish in Baba's feet.. now its not only my test but its test of my Faith, my ALLAH, my Love,, my BABA.. as they were the witness to this spiritual marriage and bond... I don't care about people or human laws... but the Ultimate...that if all these feelings are true and if i loved him truly with pure heart then MY ALLAH and Baba will bless me.

So please have faith, hope and prayers for Baba .... they say you send out the positive thoughts and energy and it comes back... think of him back with you and his family accepting you,,but before you think of this and send out this energy thank Baba and GOD for blessing you with this him... trust me, i have been doing this now for past 1 month and i have felt stronger and stronger in my heart that HE WILL COME BACK ... Baba will bring him back... so cheer up my dear... YOU WILL BE BLESSED WITH TRUE LOVE!!!

I will pray for you too at Shirdi... just KEEP POSITIVE THOUGHTS!.. and if you need to chat pls msg. me.. i will always be there.. to share your pain and tears

JAI SAI RAM!

[sagarika]

omsairam..

Baba its really tough to bear the situation if someone close to our heart hurts us...
please baba help us...bless all with their beloved ones... unka pyar ki itni pariksha maat lo deva.. aap hi hum sabka sahara ho... always be with us and show the right path and give the strength..

OMSAIRAM

[gitesh]

My Dear Friends,

Faith || Om Sai Ram || Serenity

First I want to reveal that whatever our parents do, They always do for our happiness, They always feel their happiness in their children happiness and they are equivalent to God.

I go through the words & feelings mentioned by you.. Really there is lot of emotions & pains, But want to remind you one thing that all of you are very brave that’s fighting with these troubles in life.
Have faith on Sai Baba, He will shower his blessings on all & Life will be more beautiful/Colourful.

Everyone faces Up’s & Down’s in life but we must always keep faith on Shri Sai Baba just like we have.. I pray to Shri Sai to take care of everyone & always place all of us on his feets.

Don’t worry.. abhi toh poori life hai friends… Ending should be fine.. Picture abhi baki hai mere dost…
Just tried to make all of you laugh.

I am also on same stage  since a long time.. Sai Ram.

Last but Not least to Say that God (Shri Sai Baba) knows much better then us that What is good for all of us or what is not, So leave everything on Shri Sai. Sai Baba is with all of us & looking after to everyone.

Faith || Om Sai Ram || Serenity

[shw05]

Please dont lose hopes. i was in same situation like you 1 yr ago, he broke up after 2 yrs of engagement. i had cried over him,fought with baba ,prayed baba to solve my problems and bring him back. But baba had other plans for me,he helped me to move on and see the life again. I was emotionally drained like you and used to cry day and night in front of baba to bring him back. After few months i realized he was not meant for me. Because he called me  after 3 months to say " get over me and dont waste my time"..and i realized whtever baba did was correct. Baba didnt bring him back  because baba knew he wil change after marriage. I am very greatful sai helped me. Slowly i started to improve and started enjoying life again and guess what!! i met a very nice guy who loved me deadly and today his marriage is fixed with someone else !! We mutually departed for our parents happiness..and i have decided not to tell my parents about this guy as it will hurt them. But i am thankful to baba to bring him in my life. This way i moved on gracefully from my painful days with baba's blessings. But now i am crying again for this new guy,because i also loves him very much and cant see him marrying someone else.I dont know why i am ending up in tears in every relationship.. It must be bad karma  of previous life that i m paying. I plead baba to help everyone who has lost their love. Pls baba provide strength to your childern and offer your loving support to amiablegal . She need you more than anybody. Pls protect her and give her happiness back. Baba my humble request to you is help her, solve her problems. It hurts to know when people go through broken hearts.

Amiablegal,pls keep Sai in your thoughts,baba will definately help you. May Sai ram bless you soon .

Sai Ram

[GaneshHariharan]

dear amiablegal,
i can sympathise with your situation. someone close to me was in a similar situation few years back. and she was devastated. trust completely in baba
what he does , he does for the best. u will see , things will start improving. keep faith. god bless. om sai ram, jai sairam, jai jai sairam.