Good morning dear Sai devotees, have a blessed Thursday.
Well I don't know whether most of you know about this disease called Amblyopia or Lazy eye disease. I have one lazy eye (left eye) from my birth and my eyes are misaligned. Left eye which is the lazy eye is larger than the right eye. I can only see with my right eye. I do not have 3D vision. My left eye is completely useless and you can say I am partially blind according to the current situation. I am 22 years old. And in my childhood due to my mother's sever health problems and shifting of houses , my parents couldn't understand about my eye condition. At 7-8 years of age, when I first saw a doctor he said nothing can be done,just patch your right eye(the good visioned eye) and do work with the lazy eye. But imagine doing work with lazy eye , I couldn't see anything. read anything, everything was blurred. I tried for quite some years and just gave up. Day by day, I had eye checkups , and continued studying. By Baba's grace, I completed Engineering and have been placed in an IT company, but I have noticed nowadays due to strenous studying and using computer/mobile phones (I don't watch TV though) my right eye is getting a lot of pressure (quite natural because it is alone doing the work of seeing). It pains a lot and my head too. I apply Sai baba's udi on my both eyes at night and go to sleep. Doing this for over an year but still nothing much progress. I don't know how I will be able to handle the pressure of IT job but I have to do it to support my family. But there never goes a single day, I don't get headaches. I have gone to various doctors, medical institutes but in vain.
I have heard many miracles of Sai baba. My family and I am a staunch devotee of Baba. I read His Satcharitra daily, chant His Divine Name, do His puja everyday whenever possible, And I do His vrat on Thursday but I've never specifically mentioned about "give me this give me that,Baba". I do it generally out of faith.
What should I do? I also have PCOS problem in addition.
I have adapted myself to the situation thinking I have to suffer this whole life. Cz I haven't seen a great great miracle in my life ever. Baba's presence and His timely help and I just want to love Him unconditionally even if He thinks of not curing me.
I also wanted to start my job life by taking blessings of Shirdi Sai baba by going to Shirdi. But nothing is working out , just nothing. And I am this much frustrated that my mundane life is becoming meaningless day by day. I wanted a good job with higher salary for my higher studies, my life is so worthless that even 2 months of sitting at home, I couldn't go to Shirdi because my Dad has his issues of not going.
Please sort out my worthless life Sai baba. I want to meet you, see you, your smile, Baba. You give feelings and sights to people who never expects it but You have just left me empty handed.
Every night I go to sleep thinking about you, but all I see are ghosts and nightmares and darkness. Why this is happening in my life? Will it never end? Isn't 7 years of suffering enough for me??
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