Dear Kavish,
I can deeply feel what you may feeling now, I have gone thru kinda same situation ,and somewhere kinda still facing... it is really difficult to live in hopeless situation , specially when we think that baba is not listing to us , but things is not like that ..Sai is watching us , our all pain , but he only know the reason behind that and why we are suffering like this ,which we don't know ..so trust on him , let him decide what is best for his bhaks ..
om shree sai