Dear Sai Baba,
I really tried hard to come out of the problems through which I am going through in my life. Last few months and a year has been really tough for me... Father's death in Feb 2014 and a marriage called off in Jan 2015, both these instances have really made me feel helpless. In both the instances I felt I could not do anything to save them.... I could not do anything for my father and had I not changed changed the hospital, he may have lived more.... and the broken marriage, I do not have any words for that. It was called off just 9 days before my marriage... I took it with spirit without telling anything to anyone, just because I did not wanted to force Priyanka to marry.
It was suppose to be a love marriage, Dear Sai Baba. But, we both know why did it broke off, I understand her problem and so did not force. But I really loved her. Its been 6 months god, that I havent seen her or met her... Even after such a long time, I miss my father and Priyanka alot. I feel exhausted Sai Baba, as if there is no energy left in me. I fought and I tried hard, but I am not able to over come the grief and sufferings through which I am going through. I really miss my father these days thinking that things may had been a bit different if he was alive.But he still comes in my dreams and says nothing, it was because of my mistake that he left early from this world. I am really sorry god..I feel ashamed of myself, It feels as if god has given me punishment by breaking my marriage..
Dear Sai Baba, I really loved both of them alot, I did not wanted to hurt anyone of them intentionally. I want both of them to stay happy wherever they are.. I wish I can talk to Priyanka, my life feels like nothing without her.
Please god, forgive me for my sins, please help me in making my life good. I am given up on all hopes and aspirations, I cannot live my life like this, please give me strength in overcoming problems. Every time in the past, whenever I had no choices left, I have come to this forum for help, and everytime I have got an answer from you.. I know you live here, so I have come to you after accepting defeat, I am not happy god, please give me my happiness back.
Please help me God.
- Ritesh