Dear Vifu ,
Your this post made me smile and more thankful to Baba Sai. Sometimes ago I too was in same condition, Not Love but other problems of life and begging death from Baba. But instead Baba changed complete life. Today I think if I had died, really missed great opportunity to feel beauty of such a beautiful planet and various colours of life.
Anyway, come to point. Death is certain Dear, and is fixed with the time we take birth. and it happens on time, no matter we are happy with life and want to live for many more years or living a very painful life, waiting for death at each moment. It happens only at time. Everyday millions of people died and same time take birth. Death of someone does not make any difference, unless it is someone contributing to society or humankind.
You know, time keeps on flowing and in desires of some relations we ignore relations who are supposed to be loved by us. I spent many months in pain, there was no help other than support of my family and blessings of Baba. This is an amazing truth, We waste so much of precious time of life for those for whom we are only an option, a choice or time pass and ignore them who deserves our love, our time i.e. our family, our friends etc.
We all claim our Love is true, But it is not easy to befool Master of destiny, If our grandparents are sitting alone in the corner, and we are spending hours just to see a message from someone on facebook or cell, Our Mother or father is having problem, but We are more interested to think about someone else. and then we approach God, We Love …………. etc., then a simple question – “Do We deserve Love?”. If we can’t justify relations provided by destiny, How can we justify for strangers. God knows everything, much more than we know about ourselves, We lie, makes so many excuses before Thyself, still not punished, but shown a path for better life, such a merciful God is.
Time never returns, I could not support my family in painful days, Now time is better, so try to compensate. But, One thing I always regret, Once my Grandmother expressed some wish and I ignored for my personal interest. She is no more in the world with us. If I could go in past, I try to correct my that mistake, but that is not possible. So, always live your today with full engagement, what you do, do with complete honesty and determination, still do not be attached to result, as whatsoever happens for something good, if not today, in future we gain out of that.
Finally I’ll only say. Don’t be anxious, Have faith on Baba and hold patience.
What is yours is yours, and what is not, won’t stay. So, trust your destiny and live your own life. Don’t let others control it.
All the Best!
May Baba bless you!
om sai ram!