Rahul,
Never say that !!! You are loved by a lot of people..they care for u...Baba is waiting for the right thing..trust me on that...have faith and patience...I know its been a long time..but trust me when something good happens for you, it will be fourfold...dont give up now Rahul!!1 Good things are in store and you will see it soon!!!
take care and always keep smiling