Gajanan ji,
Nothing is impossible, but it wants ones determination - which you are lacking. it seems that you do not want to try. So no one can help you.. even Saibaba. Also u r putting ur family life in stake especially your parents, just think of them. God help those who help themselves and this is thing which u r not doing!!
Yaar .. just for girl, who are ready to sacrifice ur family. Sorry it is not a good deal.