saibaba ,
can you do some miracle ,
i know now that she won't b able to come again in my life ever ,
she didnt care for me when i suicide , i have no queries,
but saibaba i love my radhika a lot ,
she who gave me eveything in life when no one was around me ,
if she is not happy with me , fine
let she b happy ,
saibaba i love radhika a lot but now i dont want her in my life at all,
saibaba do some miracle,
as i sware i won't suicide again ,
but the pain is so heavier that i m not able to live without her,
mere sai you know everything ,
mere saibaba do some miracle ,
as i only feel that i am not the right person for her ,
for eg: do my accident ,if i become handicap then i won't b able to
even think for marriage with her ,bcoz i m handicap,
pls give me blessings that i never suceed in my liefe ever ,
i am trying hard from last so many years but now i only wish,
i dont want to b sucessfull ever in my life,
i don't want to complete any dream of mine ,
bless me that i ruin my life ,
as i have liver problem little,
do some magic that my liver won't work properly,
make me the most unluckiest man in this world ,
i must c everyday myself die ,but i won't get death easily ,
or i go to comma so i always remain unconsuious thruout my life ,
really i sware saibaba i dont want happiness in my life ever ,
people run for love & happiness , some gets some didnt ,
my number was in not accept table , & its fact of life , i have to agree,
pls saibaba make me handicap , take my 1 leg or both legs ,
or take my hand ,
& when i c myself in mirror then i will realise that yes i was not made for her bcoz i m handicap,
& she went away from my life & she took the best decision to leave me,
From last 4 months ,
i screamed , i bow to her , i cry a lot,
i done suicide also 3 times but then also i survive luckily by ur blessings ,
that mere sai bless me with some bad happn , more worse happn in my life other then this,
as i have said earlier ,make me handicap , like myself accident take place ,
& give me health problems all my life till i live ,
i want the pain , more pain in my life ,
bcoz the more pain i will get , the more i realise that i was not able to do anything in life ,so she left me
today i realise when i have faith in some 1 , i got return bad from others,
i beleive in my radhika ,my love she betrayed me when we were planing for marriage at that time she found some 1 else in her live & now she is so happy with him & her freinds that she never look back to me,
i beleive in my freinds they done kidding of my love,
i done business with my freinds , he cheated me ,
i became empty with money ,
nothing had gone with me right all these years ,
but now i am so happy that all this happn with me ,
i wish mere saibaba that more worse should happn to me in my life , so more pain , more i will realise that i was not the right guy for her
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