SAIBABA I SUICIDE 3 TIMES FOR RADHIKA BUT STILL ALIVE PLS TAKE MY SOUL

[vifu1977]

saibaba

today i cried a lot ,
i scream today a lot ,
very difficult for me to forget her ,
its been more then now 4 months time ,
from last 6 months i just had seen her once when we get apart,

Mentally too much pressure on mind ,
can't heal the pain,
hope pls saibaba listen to me pls,
i want mine accident shuld take place ,
something bad shuld happn in my life,
i m trying everyday to ruin my life ,
bcoz my radhika had left me & no one was precious for me in this world then her,

Sometimes i think why i behave like a child ,
but i think in today's world to love some is the biggest crime in the world ,
today my chest is paining a lot & i m happy that it pains & i m not dieing ,
i want to live but everyday shuld be full of curse & pain ,
many people in this world had pain ,in front of them my pain is nothing ,i know,
but everyone cheated from business partner to loved one freinds to my soul radhika,
i want every day as a bad day

[tanu_12]

OM SAI RAM

U did everything for urself nt for Baba. Tel me wat u hav done til nw or wat u hav been doing 4 Baba? Nothng na? Jst do sumthng noble 4 God. And complete d tast 4 wich He has sent u on dis earth. . Ye karm bhumi hai yaha waisa hi fal milaga jaisa karm karoge. .

JAI SAI RAM 

[vifu1977]

hi tanu ,

you think i did everything for myself ,
i loved her but she betrayed me ,
i cn't forget her ,for that purpose only i attepmt for suicide by eating sleeping pills 3 times,
but i m alive & repling to you,
you only guide me what i do for saibaba ,
yes ur right i have done nothing for baba,
i m sorry for that ,
it was so painful that without her ,i cnt c the world,
i m asking bad for myself only , the more pain i will get , the more happy i will b,
i m not asking for any happiness at all ,
now tanu  you tell me & guide what shuld i do ,

[upasana]

vifuji,
try 2 fight wid life.i know dis pain..its unbearable..but trust me tim will heal ...except love we hav a lot of things to do 4 ur parents,society.friends.life z valuable,dont play wid it..i know its impossible 2 forget  ur true love.but who told u 2 forget her.but love doesnot mean u ll get her..i also betrayed of my beloved..i know its painfull to betrayed by the person u loved most.i accept dat i still love him..but i accept dis truth also he z not part of my life and he ll be my memory forever.i hav a lot f responsibility 2wards my family.i can live 4 my parents.i ll love my life partner also.god given  us pawer to love everyone.hope you are not taking this sentence negatively..Baba bless u..OmSaiRam

[vifu1977]

HI UPASANA ,
no i m not taking it negatively ,
today ur the 3 person who told me like this,
today i met my 2 freinds they just saw me & feel that so much negative mind set i have,

i was not like this before,
always laughing cracking jokes, living good life style ,
but some money crisis happened suddenly & i shared with my radhika,
i got some liver problem also , that too i shared with her,
last years oct she told me that she wanna marry me ,but i told her wait for 6 months,
i m having financial crisis ,
suddenly 1 day i got sms she found some 1 else in life & now pls vishal you forget me ,
& here the story begins & here negativity started in my mind from the moment she left me,
she made phisical reln with another guy,
i told her to forget what happn & i will accept you bcoz you r my love,
jo hua use mein bhool jaoonga & pls come back to me , but she didn't came bck,

the above was 1 of the incident i m sharing ,
more things r ther but ,

i want to live happily ,
but i m afraid bcoz happiness doesn't remain for long in my life so,
i m happy you people want to c me happy & lively ,
i just can say i will try ,
jai sai ram sai ram sairam

[tanu_12]

OM SAI RAM

I CAN ONLY SAY THAT WATEVER U R FEELING REGARDING RADHIKA IS UR ILLUSION... SAAP TO CHALA GAYA AB LATHI MARNE SE KYA FAYADA? SO RADHIKA WENT AWAY N NO DOUBT SHE IS VRY BAD.. ONLY BCOZ OF RADHIKA U R TRYING TO KILL URSELF AUR ASKING BABA TO TAKE AWAY.. Y?

JARA IS SADME SE BAHAR AAKAR SOCHO KI APKE SATH KYA HUA? KYUN HUA? AUR AB AAP KYA KAR RAHE HO? Y ARE U WASTING UR TIME BY REPENTING FOR NOTHING... RADHIKA THE GAL IS NOTHING IN FRONT OF U... N IF U THINK THAT U R GUD PERSON THEN FORGET HER BCOZ SHE IS NOT MEANT FOR U DEAR BRO...

I CAN UNDERSTAND UR FEELINGS N WAT U DID LYK SUCIDE N ALL DAT, M NOT GETTING ANGRY BCOZ OF THAT BUT WAT R DOING NW IS WRONG ?

U DO NOT DESERVE HER.. BCOZ U DESERVE SUMTHING MUCH MORE BETTER THEN HER...
WAT DO U THING THAT Y GOD HAS SENDED U HERE TO LOVE SUM GAL WASTE UR TIME NO DEAR... U HAV TO PERFORM SUM GR8 TASK FOR WHICH BABA HAS CHOSEN U, R U GETTING WAT I MEAN..

JUST BURRIED UR PAST, DONT CARRY IT WITH U, OTHERWISE U WILL NEVER SEE WAT U WILL GET IN UR FUTURE WITH GRACE OF BABA..

AGAR BABA KO KHUD KO SAUP DOGE TO APKO WO SAB KUCH MIL JAYEGA JO AAP DESERVE KARTE HO... YE LYF JISE AAP AB JINA NAHI CHAHTE MEAN THE REST OF UR LYF, KO BABA KE NAAM KAR DO AUR AISA HI SOCHO KI AAP MAR GAYE HO AUR AB APKA NAYA JANAM HUA HAI.. PURANI BATE BHUL KAR NAYE TARIKE SE JIYO... YAHI LYF HAI DEAR BROTHER... AGAR MAAN JAOGE ISE TO SAB THIK HO JAYEGA... MARNE KI BAAT MAT KARO... JISKE LIYE AAPNE 3 BAR SLEEPING PILLS KHAYI HAI USE KOI FARAK NAHI PADTA.. JISKE LIYE MAAR NAHI SAKTE USKE LIYE JIYO BHI MAAT... I MEAN SHAYAD AAPKO JISKE LIYE JINA USI KE LIYE BABA NE JINDA RAKHA HAI.. AUR AAP USI KE SATH JINA KYUN CHAHTE HO ? THODA BABA KE SAATH BHI TO JI KAR DEKHO... BABA KO BHI PYAR SE DEKHO... UNHE BHI APNE PAAS MEHSUS KARO TAAB APKO SAB KUCH NAYA LAGEGA AUR APKO RADHIKA PAR DAYA AYEGI KI KIS TARAH KI WO INSAAN HAI... REALLY BELIEVE ME... BELIEVE IN BABA.. HE DER FOR U... BABA KO PYAR KARO AUR ROZ UNHE I LOVE U BOLO DEKHO LYF KITANI BEAUTIFUL LAGNE LAGEGI....

MAIN BAS ITANA CHAHTI HUN KI AAP APNA PAST BHUL JAYO AUR AGE BADHO YAHAN RUKH JANA APKE BHAGYA ME NAHI LIKHA HAI.. APKO BAHUT AGE BADNA HAI.... BAHUT AGE BADNA HAI... AUR WAHAN SIRF BABA KE SATH HI PAHUCHA JAA SAKTA HAI, RADHIKA KE SATH NAHI...

EVEN AGAR BHAGWAN NE BHI IS DHARTI PAR JANAM LIYA HAI TO UNHONE BHI DHUKH BHOGE HAI AUR APNA KARM KIYA HAI.. REMIND ALL THAT...

SUPPOSE AGAR APKO KOI PYARA DOST APKE SAMNE MAR RAHA HO AUR WO APSE REQUEST KARE KI PLEASE MUJHE MAR DO BCOZ OF SO SO REASON TO AAP KYA KAROGE? USE MARNE ME MADAD KAROGE (USE MAR DALOGE) YA USE JINA SIKHAOGE?

READ SAI SATCHARITRA U WILL NEVER DO THIS AGAIN...

JAI SAI RAM

JAI SAI RAM

[vifu1977]

om sai ram ,

hi tanu sis ,

yes ur right ,but i am trying to live positively ,
suddenly i recollect my memories & i lock my room & i cry a lot,

i will surely try to remove radhika from my life ,
but it cannot happen suddenly ,
it takes time ,
here  in forum ,
every 1 had loved me & gave good advice ,
but i was so murkh , bewakuf that always thinking of radhika ,
& no one else ,
i once again thankful for ur advice & by all who replied me in this forum,

i will try to forget her , but give me some time ,pls sis ,
its not easy to forget her,

mere sai ,

bless all creatures in the world ,
& bhagwan kare jo mere saath hua woh kisi aur ke saath na ho ,
jo jise dil se pyar kare usse mila do ,
pls saibaba sab ka pyar usse dedo , so that only love remains in this world ,
if any single person also get back his or her love ,
then i vll b very happy ,

i promise to all i will try to forget radhika , but give me some time

jai jai sairam sairam sairam

[tanu_12]

OM SAI RAM

YEAH EXACTALLY WAT I WANT FROM U... TAKE UR TIME BUT DO NOT TRY TO COMMIT SUICIDE AGAIN.. WENEVER U SURROUND BY THE THOUGHTS OF RADHIKA RECITE SAI BABA'S NAAM... JUST REPLACE HER WITH BABA... ALWAYS TRY TO THINK ABOUT BABA INSTEAD OF HER... N SLOWLY SLOWLY U WILL FORGET HER...

N WENEVER U FEEL LYK TO CRY CRY IN FRONT OF BABA N TELL HIM EVERYTHING WHICH HAPPENED TO U... WEN U RECOLLECT UR MEMORIES U TELL THIS TO BABA, THE THOUGHTS WHICH GIVES U PAIN WILL DISAPPEAR LYK ANYTHING N WILL NOT CUM AGAIN.. OR JUST WRITE EVERTHING HAPPEN TO U AS U R REMEMBERING IT LAST TYM N AFTER DAT BURN IT AS U R BURNING UR THOUGHTS... OK TRY IT.. IT HAS PSYCHOLOGIC EFFECT ...

IT WORKS...
 
N TELL ME U DID IT AUR NOT OK... TAKE CARE.. I KNW U  HAV A BEAUTIFUL LYF TO LIVE

N U R NOT ALONE... BABA IS WITH U.. N V ALL R THERE TO SUPPORT U, HOLD U, ...

om sai ram ,

hi tanu sis ,

yes ur right ,but i am trying to live positively ,
suddenly i recollect my memories & i lock my room & i cry a lot,

i will surely try to remove radhika from my life ,
but it cannot happen suddenly ,
it takes time ,
here  in forum ,
every 1 had loved me & gave good advice ,
but i was so murkh , bewakuf that always thinking of radhika ,
& no one else ,
i once again thankful for ur advice & by all who replied me in this forum,

i will try to forget her , but give me some time ,pls sis ,
its not easy to forget her,

mere sai ,

bless all creatures in the world ,
& bhagwan kare jo mere saath hua woh kisi aur ke saath na ho ,
jo jise dil se pyar kare usse mila do ,
pls saibaba sab ka pyar usse dedo , so that only love remains in this world ,
if any single person also get back his or her love ,
then i vll b very happy ,

i promise to all i will try to forget radhika , but give me some time

jai jai sairam sairam sairam

[tanu_12]

OM SAI RAM

shalakadhiraj JI AND VIFU_JI

HUM SAB BABA KE BACHCHE HAI JAB RAH BHATAK JATE HAI TO BABA KISI NA KISI TARAH HUME APNI SHARAN ME LE HI LETE HAI AUR HAME SAHI DISHA DIKHATE HAI....

SIRF BABA KA PYAR MEHSUS KARO AUR DEKHO WO KITANE PYAR SE HUM SAB KI TARAF DEKH RAHE HAI UNSE KHUB PYAR KARO... AUR UNKI BAATEIN MANO... WO HAMESHA MADAD KARENGE UNHE SIRF PYAR CHAHIYE HAMARA LEKIN HUM SAB UNHE KISI DONAR KI TARAH DEKHTE HAI AUR KUCH NA KUCH MANGTE HI REHTE HAI...

SAB THIK HO JAYEGA...

JAI SAI RAM


 

[tanu_12]

BABA LOVES U TOO.....

JUST LOVE HIM SAY EVERYTYM WEN U SEE BABA OR WEN U THINK ABOUT BABA...

TAKE CARE DEAR

JAI SAI RAM

[sainetra]

vifu Please be strong. I can understand your pain.. be positive. one thing i ll tell u from my expeinces. If we keep going behind the people to whom we are nothing then they tend to show the attitude and go away from us.. just forget her and show her that u live very happily with out her . indulge in some acitivities. go to gym and dance and acitivities... beleive defnitely she'll come back.. and defnitely she will realise that she was happy when u were with her... Gals will never accept boy who comes behind them.. gals like the boys who tend to ignore them...

Vifu dont take such action.. Life is short. Njoy each n every moment.. who kknow if u start Njoying ur life that will in u face. and when she looks at u . defnitely she'll come back or she is deserved to u u ll sure get a good grl. later u ll realise that why the hell I went behind her shen she was ignoring me...

beleive baba.. he is with us always and showing the direction.. he'll defnitely do good for u.. Amen..

om sai ram
om sai ram
om sai ram

[upasana]

vifu,
i ll suggest d same wht tanu suggests.Tell everything 2 baba and cry if u want 2 cry.For my experience i ll tell sometymes ur pain ll throw out frm ur body throgh cry.So whn feel bad want 2 cry,go and cry infront of baba pic...it gives u mental peace .Baba z ur best frnd ,tell everything 2 him..he ll help u.OMSAINATH

[vifu1977]

om sai ram
jai sai ram

hi sainetra , upasana & tanu sis ,

today almost 20 hrs passed ,
i didnt cry for a single time, when i recollect my memories ,when i was walking on road,
i was singing alone & walking by saying :jai jai sairam sairam sairam

dear freinds , i feel little positive today ,
sainetra ur right , from 1 jan to 2 may 2011 i just saw her once ,
i don't have any contact with her ,
but frm today i started to live without her ,
this is my first day ,
but freinds just asking it won't b bad on my part if i forget her & suppose get married to another women,
i leave it to saibaba ,
what ever he decides for me wuld b definitely good for me,
if she is meant for me she will come back by saibaba's blessings,
if she is not meant for me , i won't try again to recall her back to my life,
might she is happy with her new boyfreind as she told me ,

i m just sharing with you people,
only 1 thing in my mind ,
when i didn't talk with her for some days or so , & i told her also that i don't wanna you now in my life,
bcoz some silly things she had done ,which i didnt like that at all,
then she come to meet me & sms me almost 50 to 60 or call me till late at night till 4,
until & unless i don't talk with her ,

now i m thinking in positive way , once again thanks to all freinds who shared with me my life,
when a very bad patch of my life was going on.

jai jai sairam sairam sairam

[Devbani]

Ab toh ghabara k yeh kahte hain ke mar jayenge......mar k bhi jo na paya sukoon toh kahan jayenge........

A true sai devotee can never die like this, just wait for justice.........sai bless U

[tanu_12]

OM SAI RAM

U R VRY NICE PERSON.. DONT FEEL GUILTY ABOUT TO MARRY SUM OTHER GAL... SHE NEVER LOVED U , ONLY U THOUGHT THE SAME, IF SHE REALLY LOVES U THEN SHE NEVER LEFT U FOR SUMBODY ELSE... THIS BEHAVIOUR DONT NEED ANY REASON TO FIND SUMONE ELSE.. AS U FEEL FOR HER LYK U CAN NOT LIVE WITHOUT HER N U FEEL LYK TO TALK N MEET HER, BUT SHE DOESNT...

SO JAISI TADAP AAPME HAI WAISI USME NAHI HAI.. ITANE DINO ME TO USKI BHI SAME FEELING HONI CHAHIYE THI NA... USE BHI TADPA NA CHAHIYE THA APKE LIYE BUT NAHI HUA NA MEAN SHE NEVER LOVED U.... YE SAB QUESTION TO NORMAL JO APKE MANN ME UTH RAHE HAI...

 U R IN RIGHT TRACK JUST THINK LYK THE SAME N ALWAYS REMEMBER SAI NATH IS THERE TO HELP U..

JAI SAI RAM