om sairam
jai jai sairam sairam sairam ,
i commited suicide by eating sleeping pills 3 times ,
but 3 times i survived by saibaba's blessings,
but now i m controlling myself by chanting
jai jai sairam sairam sairam
freinds,
i wanna share with you my love story for what reason i thought for suicide ,
freinds in 2010 oct ,radhika came to me to meet me & she was dying to get married with me ,
in nov she forced me to get marry as soon as possible ,
at that time i was going thru a very bad financial condition ,
i gave 1 freind 1 lakh rs on behalf of my guarantee ,
now that freind didn't pay back so i have the burden to pay 1 lakh rs,
done partnership with 1 freind he didn't gave my 75,000 rs ,
then to cover that loss i gamble in share mkt & i lost 1 lakh rs ,
so overall 2.75 lakhs i lost in short span of 2 months ,
i was in deep tension
this i told radhika that i have too much money crisis & i m not getting any job ,
so wait for some time & we will marry by july 2011 & i will talk to ur parents ,
she told me her parents will never accept love marriage so its better we do court marriage,
i told her ok fine , but not now bcoz right now my position is very weak ,pls wait,
i told her 1 day that i have minor prob in liver now a days it pains me a lot ,
in dec 2010 i didnt talk with her for 1 week for 10 days ,
on 2 jan 2011 i got sms at night at 11.30 then at 12.30 , i was shocked ,
radhika told me vishal forget me now i got new bf ,
then on other sms she told me i had phisical relation with that guy so now we cannot marry,
i didint slept for 48 hrs & was crying & roaming on road walking on street with hyper tension ,
one night i tried a lot to convnce her but she didn't ,
in morning when i wake up i saw 7 sms from radhika ,
she was drinking beer & hard drinks with her freinds from last 2 years & she didnt wanna told me abt this bcoz she told that my thinking was a backward thinking ,
2 years back once she drank at that time i scold her a lot for drinking hard drinks ,
& when she told she was drinking for 2 years i was shocked ,
then one day i call her at home & told her sis that radhika is taking drinks ,pls take care of her ,
as she is going on wrong path ,
then she call me saying that now i will lodge a complain against me to police that i m harrasing her,
i was shocked again,
on my mind only love for her was thr,
one night sms her that now i won't call u again or sms u , u live ur life freely & take care of ur parents,
god bless u !
on other day , it was so normal i got sms of hi! good morning!
hi ! how r u ! i thought she back to me ! & then she call me wher i m ,
i told her i m going to take bath after that i will go my freind office for some time then vll go home when i don't know,
she planned so beautifully,
she came to my home told my parents that vishal is harrasing me a lot,
i came home i was shocked & my parents scold me a lot that i m harrasing a gal,
i didnt told any 1 that yest only we get apart & now she came here to make my life mess,
then i call her that i cn't live without u & i m doing suicide ,
but pills were not so more effective ,
so i searched a lot on internet & then i got other pills ,
i went to railway stn also ,but i was frightened of train,
i went to khadi also but didnt have guts to jump ,
so i thought again to have sleeping pills again ,
why ?
bcoz when i call her she told that vishal if u call me now then i will bring police
to ur home or else i will tell my dad he will murder u anytime ,
i was afraid don't know what to do ,
i couldn't sleep for 4 days , i was shocked as i was frightened too,
bcoz she want me to go to behind the bars & i thought what society , my parents
vll think that my son is harrasing a gal ,
but in real i was convincing her for marriage,
then i call her dad, i don't want any trouble as radhika already told me that her father can murder me ,
anytime , so sir i don't wan t now radhika in my life as she also not interested for marriage,
on next day again i went to office , they call at my home i was not available ,
they told that they will send me behind the bars & will lodge a complain against me ,
again i was in terrible tension ,depression ,
why this gal is lodging complain & screw my life & sending me to jail,
she told me before that i will tell police that ur harrasing me a lot ,
this thing when i remember i don't know what to do ,
& due to fear of that & society people what they will think ,that c police take away vishal,
i was in terrible pressure of that,
due to her father & radhika i suicide again & ate sleeping pills but again i survived ,
then my parents told me to forget her ,
freinds, all this happn u tell me how a person survive & share his feelings with another person when this kind of things happn to me ,
i suicide for my love radhika
then again i suicide for shock she gave me that she had phisical remation with another guy,
then i again suicide bcoz she want to send me behind the bars wanna lodge complain to police against me
& wanna make my life mess,
if all this happns then u only think by trying for suicde was it any other way ,
the person whom u love the most,she plans for ur murder or wanna c u behind the bars,
mentally i was so shocked ,that i thought now love is nothing in life & its better i suicide & end my life bcoz she betrayed me ,
but now i trying to forget her & just chanting
jai jai sairam sairam sairam
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