SAIBABA I SUICIDE 3 TIMES FOR RADHIKA BUT STILL ALIVE PLS TAKE MY SOUL

[lawjigga]

Vifu:

I understand how your feeling its very difficult to get over your first 'true love'.  I have loved and lost many times in my life and each time it was a difficult process to move from. There were also many times when I didn't think I had the ability to endure more pain, as my heart was full and I was starting to give up.  You must remember to hold on, and not try to take your own life....  As crazy as it is, you will find someone that will LOVE you with her entire heart, that will call you randomly just to let you know she cares, and most importantly ACCEPT you for your faults.

In my last relationship as she treated me poorly she would rob me of any energy and I would feel tired and sleepy each day. I still loved her a great deal and for 8 months, i died inside. I cried at work, i cried to my friends, and I cried in my room. I cried to Baba. It took a while but things did get better, I found someone else and i learned more about myself.


Don't hurt yourself, you will hurt your parents, and your friends.  Radhika will not care however . Please think before you behave and if you need any help please reach out to people like myself. I have gone through this pain.... I will help you out of it.

[lawjigga]

om sairam sairam sairam

hi saib ,
ur right i shuld not find female freinds ,
i shuld concentrate on my career,

Actually a feeling comes that i can never trust a women in my life ,
if any gal becomes my wife on this earth,
i cannot trust her in my entire life nor i can love her ,only i can show that i love her ,
but its not fact ,
i will from today again oath that i will concentrate on my work only,
let relations come & go , i shuld not die with them ,
i must learn from my mistakes & shuld not forget ever what radhika had done to me,
& i fool looking for marriage & finding the way to b happy ,
no its not true,
i have to b materialistic with every 1 in this world ,
apart from my parents , my family bro & sis & my tanu sis ,

thanks saib , for to understand from my mistakes ,

freinds ,
jst asking does  sixth sense of a person works ,
i m getting some sixth sense of some  bad things will  happn to me from last 2 days ,

i m frightened also from it,
just disclose it with one of my collegue , he said : people have no time to think abt it ,
live ur life & life goes on ,
nothing serious now,bcoz it didnt happn yet,but i m frightened,
anyway ,

jai jai sairam sairam sairam

something similar had got me once and i was frightened and same night i had the worst dream too but you know what I did remember that Sai said no harm will land to my devotees . So i left it to him. I lit my candle prayed as usual and slept with udi under my pillow and ate it too. I ws saved coz I still got that worst dream but nothing physical happened so leave it to him and say baba i leave it to you coz I know you will save me coz no harm shall even come near me. I dont know its wierd coz someone else in my family too had the same dream,

So my friend baba is there no worry.

Vifu:

I agree partially with what is being said here. You are right to focus on your career and getting a strong foothold in your life. I think its important to focus on other things in your life outside of Radhika.  I would recommend you start working out (bodybuilding) and gaining a better body. Those things help when you try to find love again.

I however disagree with your opinion of not trusting a girl. You, similiar to me, are a romantic and therefore LOVE with your entire heart. This is a great tool to have, and you should not see this as a weakness you need to get rid of. You just need to understand not every girl will BE your wife. Right now, i am dating a girl that I would like to marry, but she is so busy for me .

This made me very sad. However the real truth is this, one day I will get married to a beautiful women who will LOVE me with her entire heart. I am now focusing on waiting for that wonderful girl, and continuing to grow as a person so I can be READY for her. 

Vifu: There is a girl that is BETTER then Radhika. Its hard to believe right now, but in time you will see it with your own eyes. You however must be ready for her. This girl prays for someone like you, dreams of someone like you, and you have a job to make sure when you meet her you can make her soooo happy!

I suggest you spend time becoming a better person...

Om Sai Ram.

[vifu1977]

om sairam sairam sairam ,

hi lawjigga & sairamsai ,

i just built 1 software ,
it will take time to launch ,
its about share market trading ,
my thinking is always for daily wages system like american people do ,
i trade & my target i always fixed as a monthly income as how much i wanna need,
& i always get successful in it & i never save money in my life,
today at this age i have only 1100 rs in my bank account,
i have to convert it into software , its now excel sheet , for that some money require,
right now i don't have , so the project i have b delay ,
if no one also buys my product then also from it ,
i can live my entire life , its my personal view ,
but when i remember radhika , i stop working , get tensed & cry like hell !

some days back i went to meet a third person whom i don't know nor she don't know me ,
she is a good communicator ,
i told her abt my last 6 months incidents , she told me
vishal your biggest negative point in ur life is you trust people very blindly ,
so people take advantage of you & when you come to know ,its been too late for you ,
& you get upset & do some nasty behaviour becoz you have expect more from him or her ,
& you can't control ur emotions , bcoz every time u involve ur emotions & this make u weak ,

Marriage will happn or no only saibaba knows !
but i m waiting for my fortune to change ,
so i m working on my software , so that i can earn my bread & butter ,
& get not the luxury items but may b near to it , thats my dream ,
many times lakhpati i become & many times roadpati also ,
when i go thru my life , whenever i become successful in my life in short span,
something happns & in just 2 or 3 months i lost everything in life ,
in case of radhika also , we r for almost 2 years & in just 2 months everything changed ,
i don't know when i m happy & feel on top of world , waha se gir jata hoon ,
as i said earlier i have only 1100 rs in account ,
itna kharab hota hai ki , kuch bachta hi nahi , i don't know why ?

i hve to b practical which i m not , i always hear what my heart says,
dimaag se thoda paidal hoon , ha ha ha , isliye

i dnt know whether any gal will accept me or not,
if yes fine if not then also no worries !

freinds i want to disclose one of my dream with u all ,

i become crorepati then i will ( ek choti bacchi god loonga),sorry don't know in english so ,

& use pdhana chahta hoon , wanna give her a nice life ,in short want to b her father & take care of her ,

this i dreamt when i was 20 years old ,
i don't know how this thought came to my mind ,

jai jai sairam sairam sairam

[lawjigga]

Vifu:

My heart cries for your pain. Unfortunately, my Hindi is quite poor, so I only use English as my primary medium of communication.  Keep on focusing on your career and on your software. Having a good future requires you to have some level of constant income.

You will find love. You are a romantic like myself, and because of that LOVE will find you. I am not practical either, as I give my heart as quickly I meet someone. I find the beauty in people and jump right in. Every women I meet is trying to fill the shoes of my future 'wife'.  The painful realization that I came too is not every women deserves to wear the shoes of my wife, and many of them can't handle the responsibilities.   Does this make sense?

[lawjigga]

Vifu:

How old are you? I am curious...

om sairam sairam sairam ,

hi lawjigga & sairamsai ,

i just built 1 software ,
it will take time to launch ,
its about share market trading ,
my thinking is always for daily wages system like american people do ,
i trade & my target i always fixed as a monthly income as how much i wanna need,
& i always get successful in it & i never save money in my life,
today at this age i have only 1100 rs in my bank account,
i have to convert it into software , its now excel sheet , for that some money require,
right now i don't have , so the project i have b delay ,
if no one also buys my product then also from it ,
i can live my entire life , its my personal view ,
but when i remember radhika , i stop working , get tensed & cry like hell !

some days back i went to meet a third person whom i don't know nor she don't know me ,
she is a good communicator ,
i told her abt my last 6 months incidents , she told me
vishal your biggest negative point in ur life is you trust people very blindly ,
so people take advantage of you & when you come to know ,its been too late for you ,
& you get upset & do some nasty behaviour becoz you have expect more from him or her ,
& you can't control ur emotions , bcoz every time u involve ur emotions & this make u weak ,

Marriage will happn or no only saibaba knows !
but i m waiting for my fortune to change ,
so i m working on my software , so that i can earn my bread & butter ,
& get not the luxury items but may b near to it , thats my dream ,
many times lakhpati i become & many times roadpati also ,
when i go thru my life , whenever i become successful in my life in short span,
something happns & in just 2 or 3 months i lost everything in life ,
in case of radhika also , we r for almost 2 years & in just 2 months everything changed ,
i don't know when i m happy & feel on top of world , waha se gir jata hoon ,
as i said earlier i have only 1100 rs in account ,
itna kharab hota hai ki , kuch bachta hi nahi , i don't know why ?

i hve to b practical which i m not , i always hear what my heart says,
dimaag se thoda paidal hoon , ha ha ha , isliye

i dnt know whether any gal will accept me or not,
if yes fine if not then also no worries !

freinds i want to disclose one of my dream with u all ,

i become crorepati then i will ( ek choti bacchi god loonga),sorry don't know in english so ,

& use pdhana chahta hoon , wanna give her a nice life ,in short want to b her father & take care of her ,

this i dreamt when i was 20 years old ,
i don't know how this thought came to my mind ,

jai jai sairam sairam sairam

[Sairamsai]

om sairam sairam sairam ,

hi lawjigga & sairamsai ,

i just built 1 software ,
it will take time to launch ,
its about share market trading ,
my thinking is always for daily wages system like american people do ,
i trade & my target i always fixed as a monthly income as how much i wanna need,
& i always get successful in it & i never save money in my life,
today at this age i have only 1100 rs in my bank account,
i have to convert it into software , its now excel sheet , for that some money require,
right now i don't have , so the project i have b delay ,
if no one also buys my product then also from it ,
i can live my entire life , its my personal view ,
but when i remember radhika , i stop working , get tensed & cry like hell !

some days back i went to meet a third person whom i don't know nor she don't know me ,
she is a good communicator ,
i told her abt my last 6 months incidents , she told me
vishal your biggest negative point in ur life is you trust people very blindly ,
so people take advantage of you & when you come to know ,its been too late for you ,
& you get upset & do some nasty behaviour becoz you have expect more from him or her ,
& you can't control ur emotions , bcoz every time u involve ur emotions & this make u weak ,

Marriage will happn or no only saibaba knows !
but i m waiting for my fortune to change ,
so i m working on my software , so that i can earn my bread & butter ,
& get not the luxury items but may b near to it , thats my dream ,
many times lakhpati i become & many times roadpati also ,
when i go thru my life , whenever i become successful in my life in short span,
something happns & in just 2 or 3 months i lost everything in life ,
in case of radhika also , we r for almost 2 years & in just 2 months everything changed ,
i don't know when i m happy & feel on top of world , waha se gir jata hoon ,
as i said earlier i have only 1100 rs in account ,
itna kharab hota hai ki , kuch bachta hi nahi , i don't know why ?

i hve to b practical which i m not , i always hear what my heart says,
dimaag se thoda paidal hoon , ha ha ha , isliye

i dnt know whether any gal will accept me or not,
if yes fine if not then also no worries !

freinds i want to disclose one of my dream with u all ,

i become crorepati then i will ( ek choti bacchi god loonga),sorry don't know in english so ,

& use pdhana chahta hoon , wanna give her a nice life ,in short want to b her father & take care of her ,

this i dreamt when i was 20 years old ,
i don't know how this thought came to my mind ,

jai jai sairam sairam sairam

Yes you are very emotional my dear friend but the good news is that you are also a very nice person. So here it is you are not the cheat types or the one who harms society so now after all said and done people are after all lucky to have you isnt. So now its your responsibility to carve this young man into something very useful for people around and in this process of carving yourself if the bad memories come and surround you personally I start any sai mantra or naam jaap that I know. Man ki shanti ke liye pray karo ask sai to show you the right path.

Helping others do give immense peace even now with no money but the knowledge you have try to teach some poor kid who wants to have a teacher. that can be a way to serve and to start right now.

Till then keep praying sometimes we need a blow to come on the right path, I feel. But important thing is that we dont deviate from it ever.

[Anupam]

< i fool looking for marriage & finding the way to b happy ,
no its not true,>

SAIRAM VIFUJI remember Happiness and marriage are enemies of each other. Choose Happiness. Thanks for getting out of depression and false emotions. SAI is always with brave souls like you

[saisai83]

OM SAI RAM OM SAI RAM OM SAI RAM OM SAI RAM OM SAI RAM OM SAI RAM
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Vifu, please be strong, you are getting through this so well, try to forget the past, Baba is with you at every step my brother

Jai Sai Ram

[vifu1977]

om sairam sairam sairam ,

hi lawjigga ,
i m 34 years old ,
cash in hand = 0
life in hand = only saibaba knows ,

freinds ,
one person name aakash ,
his thread created
WAKE UP AKASH !!!

pls go thru that thread, that person needs help , he is in dubai,
& fighting himself with life & death,
saibaba cure aakash , as his family needs him,
pls show ur blessings to aakash ,

if any 1 near dubai , who can help aakash , wuld b grateful,
pls pass on the msg & try to help him freinds ,
any 1 can pass msg on facebook , or yahoo or where u people find it more convenient,

jai jai sairam sairam sairam

[lawjigga]

Dear Vifu,

I am 32 so we are close in age. I understand how your feeling, I felt the same way a little while back. Don't ever let depression cause you to take your life my friend. You will hurt your mother, father, and all your close friends so much. There is so much bad Karma that you will get. I really care about you a lot my friend. I can relate more closely then you know.

[vifu1977]

om sairam sairam sairam ,

hi lawjigga,
i hve now no close freinds , bcoz 1 freind cheated me & another business freind also cheated me ,
rest freinds make fun of my love & my feelings , by saying that good accha hua , that she went from ur life , bcoz nobody likes her , they were from the start oppose that you shuld not marry this gal at all ,
right from start my freinds any of them don't like her ,
but i balance my freind circle & radhika hand in hand ,

right now my 15 years freindship ends as well my love radhika also not in my life,
what i say ! 
i always take care of her , never make her sad ,
always crack jokes which she likes ,
i always consider her as my wife ,
Never thought in dream that she wuld make any physical relation with another guy ,
that day i screamed a lot , & cried a lot like anything ,
her plan to lodge a wrong statement against me & put me in behind bars ,
her lie to my parents that i m harrasing her a lot ,
in fact , we apart before that day only & i told her live ur life with ur family & take care
of ur parents ,
but she planned so beautifully,
ki mujhe kuch samaj hi nai paya ,
call me on mobile , tracking me where i am ,
& when i told i m outside suddenly came home & told me parents that vishal is harrasing me,
till now i cn't face my parents,
my mom cried a lot 3 days bck that my son suicde for 1 gal , seeing her crying i felt
very guilty for myself ,
why i am on this earth ,
what this people have done anything wrong by giving me birth ,
why i harm them ? why i harm them ? why i harm my parents ?
i didn't c anything just thinking of radhika everytime
& she betrayed, planing tht mere haath pav tod ke rakh degi by complaining to his dad ,
or send me to jail for harrasing her ,
IN REAL ALL HARRASEMENT SHE HAD DONE TO ME !
SHE LEFT ME !
SHE BETRAYED ME !
SHE HAD PHYSICAL RELATION WITH ANOTHER GUY !
SHE WANT ME TO HARASS EVERYTIME BY GIVING FALSE STATEMENTS AGAINST ME , WANNA SEND  ME JAIL,
DUE TO HER FATHER & RADHIKA ,I WAS SO MUCH DEPRESSED & IN TENSION & FRIGHTENED , WHAT TO SAY ABT THOSE DAYS ,
I ATTEMTED SUICIDE ,
IF I WULD HAVE DIED  THEN WHAT WULD HAVE HAPPN TO MY PARENTS ,

I STILL REMEMBER ONCE SHE SAID
VISHAL : IF U LEAVE ME THEN I WILL SUICIDE ,PLS DON'T LEAVE ME EVER !
IF SOMETHING HAPPENS TO ME THEN YOU WILL LEAVE ME NA ! BCOZ I WO'N'T B MATCH YOU THEN ,
I SAID  :  I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU , ITS MY PROMISE ! WHOLE MY LIFE I WILL B WITH YOU ,

i got emotional again ,
why she betrayed me , this q always in my mind ? why ? for what ?
bcoz i was having minor liver prob or i lost my whole bank balance ,
or i was not getting job !
but it doesn't mean she find a new guy when she plan for marriage with me ,
in just 10 days she found some 1 & she sleep also with him !
it hurts ! it hurts ! it hurts ! it hurts !

saibaba meri radhika ka khayal rakhna !
kya karu kuch samaj nai aa raha hai saibaba !

in 2 days i have to complete my software work ,
then it will take 1 month more , saibaba pls guide me ,
rest is all in ur hands mere saibaba !

pls give every 1 love,happiness & their loved ones back ,
i pray for aakash , saibaba pls bless & cure ur child aakash , please saibaba

jai jai sairam sairam sairam

[Sairamsai]

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SAI BLESS HIM WITH PEACE AND STRNGTH I ASK YOU BABA TO SHOW HIM THE WAY......

[Anupam]

Sairam Vifuji,
It is very surprising that the evil, who planned to destroy you, and brought u to suicide attempt, u still want Baba to take care of her. It seems u are not out of her evil spell, surprising. The one who is so money hungry that she can even do all the shameless things for money.Try looking at the space between eyebrows,your eyes without lifting the head, Just by raising the eyes up, for few minutes everyday, this will improve ur mental condition
Do you have the address/contact of your friend Akash in Dubai?? I will try to help out as much as I can with SAI's grace

[vifu1977]

om sairam sairam sairam ,

hi anupam ,
see the thread

[vifu1977]

om sairam sairam sairam ,

hi anupam ,
see the thread

WAKE UP AAKASH  !

WAKE UP AAKASH !

i saw this thread here below on ( saibaba help me forum ) frst page only ,
so thought to share with every 1 ,
if you post there in that thread might u get some information ,
hope if any 1 near can help him out !

jai jai sairam sairam sairam