SaiRam dear sister Sai_bhakt,
I just read these postings today and feel pretty sad with your state. I can so much feel your sadness and despair and hope for things to get better.
You are going thru pretty rough times and how much is in store only HE knows. But sister, good part is you are struggling, you are patient and you are praying. I pray for you now, for the all the blessings from our Sai, so you may carry on..come out a winner, refined and happy person. No one knows what future holds but if there is anything in the present you can count as blessings, undertsand that you are still fortunate than many many others. Chant Sai, think Sai and read Sai literature when possible. Keep yourself fit and never stop putting efforts if you don't succeed first or few attempts. May Sai's blessings be with you always and you share good news with all.
Aum Sai Ram !
SAI SAI SAI SAI SAI
SAI SAI SAI SAI
SAI SAI
-Anju