om sai ram Anupgopi ji.............
see u love at any extend , do what ever u like, but don't talk about taking your life.
its not in our hand and its a sin....first love the most beloved our "SAI"...ur first love shud be our deva sai..
there are lakhs n lakhs of people going thru the same condition like u....
i pains it hurts i know but think of our baba surrender to him and tell him to bear ur pain...
though its tough u have to bear it due to our past karmas....until they are burned baba can't give this to us..
and remember if ur love is true and baba has choosen him/her for u then no one can separate u.
once ur surrendered u will get what u want.....baba will bring it to u...only his condition is love baba unconditionally...
Go to temples , read sai satcharitra, go to Shirdi ..... help poor people are who r in need of baba's blessings...
think about ur parents, siblings........ search ur hapiness in their hapiness.....just pass ur time in doing these things
and without ur realization u might be getting married to ur love by baba's grace.....
we have to accept what baba gives to us