Omsairam
i dn't knw wats yur problm , par ek baat kahuge apse kabhi yeh mat kehna ki baba nai hai agar woh na hote to aap iss dwarkamai mein kabhi na aa pate , kyunki baba ki isha ke bina koi dwarkamai ki seedhiya nai chad sakta..aap chahe baba se jitna bhi nazar ho jao par baba apko kabhi nai chodege kyunki apki fikar apse zyada hai ..ek baat dil se pukar kar to dekho baba kisi na kisi roop mein tumhare samne honge bas tumhe unko mann ki ankhoo se dekhne ki jaruart hai ..sirf itna kahuge surrender yurself to baba ji , he will take care of ur life...........
Do read Sai Satchritra yu will feel good......
Omsairam