Time to realise ur power and change myself and then ask for ur mercy!!

[aquafish]

I have been in this forum before..always asking baba to bless me and give my love back..in the past 3 months i havent prayed properly..in the sens I did read charitha, i light diya everyday but that is not enough...yday I met my love after 3 months for the first time and u know what I realised, here i was thinking that he left me and baba has done wrong..but in reality its me ..who has been making my love go away...its me all the time...When he asked me tor espect our relationship and keep my mouth shut and not discuss things with my family our friends..all i did was kept telling them and lying to him about it..I have done eveyrthing wrong and craed about oither people and not my love...SO i am not back for more sympathy but to pray to baba to give me the sense to fight back and change this horrible person I have become and then see what happens..I am not asking baba for my love anymore but asking him to help me change for the good and be the way I was and then make my love to trust me again and this time forever and not give him false hopes...

Thanks baba for giving me another chance..he wudnt have come back if he didnt care or love me...

give me the strength baba...and will accept whatever u give me...

Om sai ram

[VinitBhushan]

Dear aquafish ji,

Your come back and the post will certainly provide hope to those, who are in need.
Having faith on sai baba and leaving everything to him with patience will make any dream come true.

Baba bless all.

[aquafish]

thanks Vinit ji..all i can do is pray

[Sonu2310]

Om sai ram aqua ji,
                             How r u ? After reading ur post i was very happy, since u realized what went wrong before it was too late. Ya u r right, all v can do is just pray , let Baba decide what is best. How r things at ur end ??

[aquafish]

thank u Sonu ji....

Its too late and i realised afte tat...thats what is killing me..u know i have never seen tears in his eyes and i was the one who made that happen..he is so angry and hurt....i am scared something will happen to him...he has been closing and shutting everybody out and he is spewing venom in every word..but u know i deserve it so i am taking it!! i just wish he feels its not too late...look at me still wanting to be accepted by him...he is not god..when god cant accept me what can he do a mere human...i dnt know...but all i know is i have to redeem myself in my eyes..so i can live....i need to do this..

[Sonu2310]

aqua ji, everybody pass thru this some or the other day. God has forgiven u, thats why he has given u an opportunity to correct urself, what if everything would have ended completely and then u had no means to get back ur love. I know it might be late but its not too late. Just believe Baba, i am sure, he will help us. take care.

[aquafish]

i hope so Sonu...but do u think he will feel tat way ever...he hates to see me ...he says he cared and found reasons to stay with me but i kept pushing him away..i kept giving more importance to others..not 1time, 2 times but  amillion times..but my intentions werent bad ofcourse tat doesnt show the way i wanted it to...anyways...no more about this..i will concentrate on prayers....all i need now is baba...

[vidyarp]

Dear aquafish....u r a lucky person to have realized your mistakes. Not many people do this. And they continue crying and cribbing without realizing that god will also help those who help themselves.
Now that you have realized your follies, its time to work on them and get rid of them. Be yourself, surround yourself with good thoughts, good books and good people. Automatically you will start giving out positive vibes. And nobody can resist such a positive person.

Om Sai Ram....May god be with you.

[akansha]

jai sai ram
aquafish its realy good to hear that uve got another chance..do make the most of it..n now that u have realised ur mistake n have a heart to set things rite baba wil definately help u..baba plz bless her n take all her sorrows away.
jai sai ram

[aquafish]

thank u eevryone...even in so much pain and anger he told me he really lvoes me more than anything but he cant forgive me just yet,,,just needs time...and he still has hope i will change....baba gimme the strength to do this..om sai ram

[Well-wisher]

He will... am sure he will. Very happy for you... very very happy for you...
Rajiv... u ok???

[Sonu2310]

Dont worry dear, everything will come to an end soon, bringing only happiness in ur life. Six months is not at all a time, there are people who are waiting for Baba from past 7 years. Just keep praying, never worry what would happen next. take care.. Om sai ram

[aquafish]

baba give me the strength to do this!!om sai ram

[rajiv800]

its hard to get hold u u wellwisher ji
how are u
how have u been
how is work
om sai ram

[Sonu2310]

Om sai ram aqua ji,
                             How r u ? How are things goin on ?? Dont take much tension, things will get resolved at their own ease. Only our firm faith & patience will help us. baba bless Anamika,Ankur, Akanksha,Aquafish, bharti ,chweetu, gunj, Nancy, Pragya, Ramajaya, Saisan, Suhani, Saicharandhool ji, Vinit ji, well-wisher, javeedji, saikrupakaro ji, suchi ji, binod ji & myself.. We all need u