OM SAI RAM
Hi, Drashta,
I have been reading the string to your post and felt like saying something
these are just my opinions and my perceptions
From what little I know about Baba, the very fact that he called you to shirdi and gave you the mind enough to ask for your love is miracle enough. He could have called you for any other reason too
This shows you are a special child to him
May be Baba had planned, that the nut does not realize what is right for him, and he needed time to teach this guy some sense. Considering he has gone through professional, personal/financial loss, Baba didnt want you to face the same. Or may be the guy was just paying off his past karmas
We will never know
But now that he is back, in whatever way, this is a sign from Baba to tell you not to give up
I have come to believe, everything happens at its pre-determined time
Nobody can alter it. My mom says, somebody can rob what;s in your hands (material things) but no one can rob your destiny
What is yours, will come to you, sooner or later
you would say, later means how late??
My answer is, when you truly truly love someone, time, ego, etc. does not matter
Baba will give you when it's time
Remember his 11 vows? one says, he who comes to me will not go empty handed
Believe in that.
I really appreciate the patience you have shown. It will pay off
Self may be re-born 100times and not know "surrender", but if you have surrendered completely to Baba,
I am sure he would have communicated to you what he wants you to do
He not only listens, but speaks to anyone who wants to listen to him
Onus is on us to pay attention to his speech
He may speak through any medium, not necessarily words. we know he loves us, does he come to us and literally speak in our ears? Not always, he uses other mediums
Similarly, there are some people, who can freely express their feelings, others dont
We need to adjust ourselves accordingly
I guess all the waiting has made you tired
I got this sms from my friend:
There is always a HOPE and and END
You can make it "ENDLESS HOPE" or HOPELESS END"
I will stick to former
Lastly, your post has only made me stronger in my quest and determined to keep going
Keep praying!!!