Dear Kirti,
om sai ram!
It is not something unusual. To understand why it happens, First understand what We are. We humans are a kind of very advance machine, Our Body constructed by four elements and supported by Fifth one. Our Mind (Conscious and sub conscious) is a system which operate our life through various techniques (Thoughts/emotions converting into Karmas) and life exists untill we end number of breathes we are allowed in this mortal world. The ultimate purpose of life is to live such a way to come close to lord, so that Atma can return to Its beloved Parmatma. But at the same time Maya hold us in such a manner, we forget why we exist and get into other affairs of worldly life.
To change a life is not impossible. Yes, it is difficult. Even if We succeed to change, Power of delusion take us back in the same world again and again until we attain transformation which is permanent.
The state of anxiety, depression and frustration is not permanent, It is one of the activity of mind, Governed by universal mind (Power of Nature), to simplify just understand If you take a backup of your system, and it is server, than it will block/terminate all users to act on a particular program when it will reach there to copy the contents in use under that software. But, when backup will be over, The work gets started again. Same is life, After these temporary emotions, We return to beautiful and peaceful world of Baba. Soon, You will feel fresh energy and strength in you.
To remain always happy and enjoy sweet and holy name of Baba, It is just to be part of Baba himself. For that one has to detach himself from all worldly desires and surrender completely to Lord. It does not mean to leave the world, but while remaining in world to control all expectations with firm faith on Baba.
Happiness is only a state of Mind, Emotions are also a form of energy only. You must have noticed when deal with happy people, mind also appears light, burden free even for some time, But when in negative environment it becomes heavy and it might result in inner pain and suffering.
One most important thing is Self Talk, For sometimes assume You are not You, Then look at your own thoughts, conversation you make with yourself …………….. You are wise, so I understand, You can get what I mean.
In the world of Baba, nothing is impossible (Following with spiritual standards), But Nature has own way to work in our lives, that’s why Baba have given Mantra to hold us in our life. Shardha And Saburi.
For Answers, I know we get all answers, But only at appropriate time. For Baba to answer is not something a major task, But what is important, Are we able to accept the answer whole heartedly. You have seen here lots of people in pain and also tried to help many with your valuable advice and you have noticed how difficult is for them to accept truth. It is all Time, To get rid of effect of Past Karmas there is only two ways Sewa (Serve God in whatsoever form) or Sumiran (Make God part of your life remembering him always, in all acts of life)
So, To know answer is not a big thing, But to accept the same ………….. this is point.
Baba will definitely come with reply ………………. till then (in your words) Keep Praying!!!
om sri sai ram!
* If you get out of what I said, Good, If not, don’t think much, simply ignore this message. Time and Nature have their own power and way, and both are under mysterious and unique way of Baba Sai!