The Inevitable

[Prasanthi]

The Inevitable

In god's jurisdiction, I am an undertrial
for I ignored His ordeal for my ideal.
One day, His Highness summoned my soul
and issued a decree, a punishment of third degree.

Time squeezes my heart
but I can't moan
for I know, it is His hand

problems catch my throat
but I can't escape
for I know, it is His deal

Modesty fries my body and soul
I can't show the pain
for I know, He has lit

Honesty slaps my face
I can't turn red
for I know, He ordered

Alas, to whom I can complain
He himself is behind the screen

Still...... asked Him, 'why such a love on me?'
He said, 'You Sinner'.
I requested, 'Let me choose the punishment'
He denied 'No way'.
I pleaded, 'Too much for a tender heart'
He said, 'Destiny is the matter of such an act'.

I prayed, 'Let me cry. Let me shed the grief'.
He laughed, 'You learnt everything in brief'.

There I remained, helpless, motionless, speechless.
Why I am knowledged? Why I am educated?

I can neither suffer, nor I can revere
I can neither blame, nor I can fume

I wish I could live
But I know I can't
I wish I could die
But I know I don't
I remained the living dead
with a path, ought to tread.
I resurrect to thank god
for both the good and the bad.

To offer prayer,
for wisdom, to accept everything as His treat
for peace, to rest at His Lotus Feet

Prasanthi

[Sushma1]

Prashanti ji,
    You are asking for the right thing at the end
"To offer prayer,
for wisdom, for peace, to rest at His Lotus Feet"

But you made a mistake in saying

" I can't show the pain
for I know, He has lit


Alas, to whom I can complain
He himself is behind the screen"


Sai is never behind  the pain you are facing it is your own past act that is bringing this pain then why blame Sai. Sai is so kind that He can never think of suffering His own child.

Please never blame Sai for this. If you are thinking that you are living like a dead then make it alive by knowing your innerself i.e , SAI.

Sai bless your child with wisdom, peace and rest at Your Lotus Feet.

Sushma.

[Prasanthi]

Sushmaji,

It is so easy to say that. I am not so mean to complain of pain for petty things. I am very well aware that one has to bore the past sins. My only grief is why baba has done few things to me? I had been praying right from my childhood not to give a punishment to me (may be for the past births sins) and I am ready to face or suffer in any other way. HE has promised me also. Then why did this apathy? Why this cheating?

I too love HIM still and forever but I can't digest few things that happened to me. Only HE knows. Let us see. But I really feel HE will do me the justice. If not HE, who else can. But justice delayed is justice denied.

Prasanthi

[san2004]

OM SAI RAM,
BABA WILL DEFINATELY HELP YOU, PRASHANTI JI. WE WILL PRAY FOR YOU. IF GOOD DAYS DO NOT REMAIN BAD DAYS ALSO DO NOT REMAIN.YES, THEY ARE MUCH LONGER.
BABA WILL ONLY GIVE YOU STRENGTH.
JAI SAI RAM,
SANJIV

[Prasanthi]

Sanjivji,

Thank you. I don't feel even good or bad if HE averts the biggest punishment HE has given me. I take and treat everything as equal. I surrender completely to HIM. As long as I suffer because of this pain, because of His lie, I cannot be happy. I strongly need to confirm my faith that baba never lies and HE will do justice to me. Let us wait and see.

Prasanthi